because I'm keeping the faith.

gone were the days when I used to update this page every week/fortnight or still better, every month.
there's a saying by Luna Adriana that goes - there are two reasons why people don't talk about things; either it doesn't mean anything to them, or it means everything.

certainly there's a lot of truth to that, as I think of why I haven't spoken (here) for a long time.

1. separate of lyricalsteps, I have also opened up another more public Wordpress account. it's not updated often either but I guess I'm more selective with what I showcase publicly
2. i'm not sure that much has been going on in my life other than work in that corporate place I was talking about in my previous post.
3. then again, everything happened in the time frame of July until now.
4. I had also been spending probably a great portion of my daily life falling deeper into this hole called kpop
5. (kpop is cool ok)
6. and I guess I've just decided to be more so in the moment of going through life instead of penning every instance down

since I'd brought it up already & just for updates to the lonesome readers of this obsolete page and a future reminder to myself in case I'd developed dementia - after slightly over 11 months of tenure, I have bid goodbye to the polished, world-ranking accounting firm. I gave it plentiful thought before typing out the resignation letter and as the faint memories came back to me slowly and indefinitely, I knew that I have been unhappy for an extremely long time with this job and the only way to escape, is to quit.


certainly, quitting is much easier if i'd been an individual uneasily fazed by others and people kept their two pence worth of bullshit advice no one asked for to themselves. it wasn't an easy feat, especially as I see the dent it would leave on my nomadic CV and how it would affect future employers' views on me before considering me. I mean, I could not be a bigger working hoe.


as cheesy as it sounds, I took a deep breath and told myself, to keep the faith.

(yes this has to do with the fact that I'm in my church Christmas play and am singing a solo that goes along the same lines of that, sue me why don't you)

I've been jobless for a good two weeks and I must say, it feels pretty damn great to wake up to no work obligations and texts from early morning/the night before asking for all sorts of sorts. there really is nothing like esaping the compulsory dependency on an alarm clock and lounging around in your PJs all day without care, having time to actually eat breakfast and quite legitimately, just think of yourself.

slowly but surely, I'd been starting to actually feel happy again, despite nothing actually happening to have triggered newfound joy. just pure, simplistic happiness of being present and being relatively, free.

to quote one of the more outstanding figures who was not directly my mentor but a definite leader, maybe it's time for me to have some self reflection to re-think which path I want to take. if I would like to opt for a different setting somewhere else. of course, there's an 80% chance of non-escape from working behind a desk. after all, we all need our computers and e-mails, don't we? so maybe, a different air, perhaps.

in this free time that I have established, I'd also been able to rediscover and renew my passion for reading as I am a few pages close to finishing Murakami's Colorless Tzukuru Tazaki and hop on to After Dark thereafter. while this world we live in is not always a bad place, it is always important to get lost in the literature of another world as well every now and then. it's what keeps you alive. it's what keeps me alive.

so that's about it, I guess.

an unfinished book, a job well-tendered and a Christmas production where I will be singing 'Keep The Faith' in all its splendour and razzmatazz. could life be imitating art or is this just God's way of creating art to imitate life?

guess I'll just have take a seat and let the universe do its magic.

Just Because - Baek A Yeon ft JB (of GOT7)