because its a game.

now thats one beautiful knee, ain't it?

and it sure looks like light brown in the photo but its turning black

we'll be seeing more of that once tournament's over, trust me.


Go On Girl- Ne-Yo

because we have phones to message her- Liy.

..............
so here's the very dumb blonde story that made me cry the night, and this morning.

1. i was on the way to MValley with FooFy and SiuWern, in a taxi
2. TO WATCH STEP UP TWO YEAH BABEHH
3. i swear, i was not touching my phone at all in the taxi
4. and i remember safely keeping it in a pocket of my slingbag
5. and i usually check the taxi when i leave
6. somehow yesterday, i didn't check the taxi
7. and only realized that i lost it almost after an hour
8. note; I HAVE NEVER LOST MY PHONE BEFORE
9. genius SiuWern; quickly called my handphone numerous times
10. as it continued ringing means its not stolen/stolen yet
11. SOMEONE PICKED UP

1. it was the taxi driver
2. i freaked; panicked; jumped; galloped
3. he said he'd send it back to me, but with a price RM50
4. i'd do ANYTHING; like duhh my phone lahh weiiii
5. but i told him i'll call again later to confirm a place where he can send it back to me safely, as i pass him the money as well.
6. i hung up, as i cheered in joy

1. i called my phone after i got back from MV
2. it was OFF
3. i called literally, a hundred times...
4. and it was OFF
5. thats it lahh; my phone gone just like that. when i knew i could've done so much more to get it back. can ask for NUMBER PLATE, his HANDPHONE NUMBER, HIS NAME... but i didn't. why? because i am dumb blonde.
6. told my mom bout it; she also tak marah
7. coz she know i was already depressing about it
8. awww i love you mummy :)

1. today in school, called again
2. i shut my eyes, praying and praying for a miracle
3. DAMN THIS OLD MAN ACTUALLY PICKED UP
4. i didn't wanna ask him why he offed my phone; takut he offended
5. asked for the plate no., told him to come to the school front gate at 1.30
6. 'saya pakai baju semua hitam ye. saya tunggu pakcik!'
7. 'hahaha okay okay.'

i waited impatiently as i held on to the RM50 that barely mattered to me, waiting for the taxi to show up.

exactly at 1.30....
the taxi showed up.

OMG TERIMA KASIH BANYAK PAKCIK. pak cik tak taw; hp ni mmg terlalu berharga utk saye

you nasib sgt baik taw. lepas you pergi, ade 3 passenger masuk teksi, tapi sume x nmpk ini hp. pastu ade driver mcm pakcik pulak heha ;p

AAAH. just.... terima kasih bnyk lah, pakcik. THANK YOU

luck hor? luck.
i'ma write a nice essay about him, and send it to the Star :)
and RM50 is such a small amount laa, compared to how much he could've got from selling off my phone.

your father's with you, JuYi. your father's with you.

-Kuna-

it was never meant to be lost in the first place :)

Officially Missing You- Tamia

because i am stupid.

because i trusted a stranger, AGAIN
because of that, i lost my phone.


because my dad bought that phone for me.
because the money was directly from his wallet.
because it was his hard-earned money.


because it contained an sms from my dad,
a day before he went away.


because the sms was something very rare; not all parents send to their children.

JuYi :) :) when taking photo that time, smile okay? :) daddy and mummy are very proud of you, and you also have to always be proud of yrself. okay? daddy loves you :)

because its got too much sentimental value for me to lose.
and i still cannot accept the fact i don't have it anymore.


The Air We Breathe- The Figurines

because it makes everything a little better.

i recall a short conversation i had with KeeAun a few days ago in the car as he drived me back home from church. sudden curiosity struck me, so i had to ask;


why is it that people are so down nowadays?
what do you mean?
like you know how some people... they always go 'oh life sucks', 'oh you don't know what i've been going through', 'oh you don't know how much pain i'm in...'
OH. well... its the trend, you know. some think its cool; but some are forreal
yeah some are definitely forreal. but can't they understand that some people go through worse, yet they don't complain about it?

*momentary silence*

like these people, why not try ... standing on the other side? you know.. being positive. the i'm-emo thing is growing bigger and bigger so why not try being the i'm-happy person? i've been thrown with a lot of crap lately and.... i still try to find positivity and humour in everyday life. i try my best to smile at the end of the day and when i do.... it makes me feel so, so good. it feels better.
you know, JuYi.... not many people can do that.
no one said it was easy. :)


so yes, i admit.
i have screwed up a couple of things so far in my life.
but i've had people do the same thing to me before.


its like a cycle, really. an on going cycle.
i have forgived those people, and waiting for myself to be forgiven.

but hey.... lets all try to smile at the end of the day.

appreciate the little things in life;
like how you managed to wake up on time
like how blessed you are that your parents are still with you
like how you are not facing daily situations like those in Africa and Iraq
like how you can indulge in yummy Oreos, and have milk to go with it
like how you are still alive until today.


sure, your life might not be easy...
but so is mine, and so are others.

lets just all try to smile at the end of the day :)

because i admit; i am screwed up.

yesterday after sports day,
i rushed ready myself for church.


thank you Jeremy for teman-ing me :)



i have no idea WHY i was so clumsy yesterday.
especially with names.


i met this girl, Angelina.
and so dorkily, we planned on introducing ourselves.
instead of saying 'hi i'm JuYi'
i said 'hi i'm Angelina'


and then i called BA, BHO.
and then i spilt my milo all over Allison's tamborine and Bible.
still feel bad; SORRY


and then while i was walking to somewhere,
i tripped and nearly fell flat on my face.


and then when KA drived me home....
i took along his windshield cover.
and he had to call me to give it back to him.

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i still don't understand why she did it

stop la Nadeem. she already feels bad enough

honestly.
i don't either.

i won't blame you if you don't trust me anymore.
but i just hope i could let you know...
that people can change.
some for the bad, but some for the good.


its been more than a year already.
i still won't blame you if you doubt your trust on me.
but i just hope i could let you know...
that people can change.
some for the bad, but some for the good.

i won't blame you if you don't trust me anymore

We Don't Play- Lil Rob

because Yvonne reminded me LOL

oh oh.
and the 4x100 meter horr...
i was the first runner laa, basically.

i never was the first runner.

i never practised with the other three girls before.

i never even attended practice LOL

and i had to run, side by side...
to freaking Melydia,
Hajar,
and the super WongMeiChin.


panicked like char bor, trust me.
because i knew that all three are OHMYGODPANTSTERJATUH fast, and i honestly didn't believe that i could run faster than them. I DIDN'T BELIEVE IT.


and WJaya damn lucky laa;
get the most outer lorong aka lorong paling panjang.
but as you know, i get to stand a few feet ahead of all the runners laa.


so i was the first runner.....
felt like wanna pee my pants....

*POOF!*

.gunshot fires.

i ran........
like, RAAAAAAAAN.....
and luckily, managed to maintain my position as the runner ahead, all the way until i passed the baton to second runner, Wan Nafilah. she rocks man; sumpah.


honestly, when i was running....
i could feel my dad running next to me.
maklumlah; my dad was olahragawan sekolah....
it nearly brought tears to my eyes when i completed my 100 meter run.
=')


and Yvonne sucks for getting almost last in the 100 meter race.
mangkok; so much for wanna be olahragawati 2009 la?
come laa. we practice more rofl

hey daddy

hope you received my letter : )

i'ma write another one to you real soon, love you.

Ring Ring- Mika

because i have bitch potential.

as much as i hate you like bodoh......
congratulations lahh, Wangsa Setia.


you guys really deserved the number 1 spot.
samo got the Naqib and Azureen; haiyooo depressing la.

eh eh... come come we try olahragawati next year

eh COOOOME =D

LOL Yvonne.


but i thank God laa;
we got gold for the 4x100 meter! :D
i mean, of course la i super bangga because my whole life of running, i never managed to get a gold before. the highest i would get is bronze, and thats it. be it, with or without a team. so don't think i'm a weirdo for overreacting like crazy when i found out we won gold xD


congrats as well, to miss SiuWern who got a bronze!
sick ah; never imagined you as a super runner weyh.
get BRONZE MAAN FREAKING SICK.
wait la SiuWern next year i join lol xD


but no point laa.
got that record-breaker Azureen girl *pouts*


eh Hajar. sape menang you? AKUUUU
eh Hajar. sape menang adik you? ADIK AKUUU
eh Hajar. sape menang you and adik you? AKU DAN ADIK AKUUU


HAHAHA.
i we were yelling like gorillas, literally.


and my sister.... rocks lahh.
she was so-called, the game runner.
coz the first runner was quite slow, and resulting in my sister as the fatty second runner, everyone thought WangsaJaya; kantoi lahh. because they were already last and considered quite far behind.

WHO KNEW MY SISTER

THE FAT, ANNOYING

WONG JU ANN

FROM THE LAST PLACE

COULD OUTRUN THE REST

AND COME OUT IN THE FIRST PLACE

IN A HUNDRED METERS ONLY WEYH

and thanks to her, really...
the team came out in first place.

weyh JuYi.....

adik kau boleh lari dohhhhhhhhh~

-Danial Nadir-

damn.
i wish i had her horsepower.
no wait i do;

you run faster than your sister la, JuYi.

remember all those times she showoff challenge you but you still outrun her?

*self whacks*

but still.
i wish i had her horsepower. =s


although very the menyakitkan hati.....
that Wangsa Setia only won us by 2 GOWDAMN POINTS.....
i still think we did very well.


and in the end.....
everyone is still a winner. : )


TAHUN DEPAN MENANG OIH!
SURE CAN YAWWWW! <33

the were two things in our friendship;

i know the kind of girl you are

and you know me only as someone you expected me to be

i don't have to gain your trust back

because i dare say

i don't want it anymore

so goodbye for now, bestfriend.

Happy Ending- Mika

because its weird like cacat.

maybe when you were playing, you know.... you didn't realize that you accidentally spraint your neck, or was over-exhausted or......

doctor. basketball involves mostly my legs and hands. and they, are perfectly fine.

and i couldn't have turned my head THAT hard to spraint it and get it swollen, now would it? i didn't give it a 360 degree turn okay.

but got my neck swollen.

apparently, the nerves and veins in my neck have been strained.
its not like, bulgingly blue-black laa but it is bigger than its original size.
pain.ful.o.m.g

dahlah today already miss out on school, missing bball and running practice......

for the next two days, stay at home and rest

OMG sports day is tomorrow!

so how?

i'm running, i'm cheering on friends, i'm selling stuff for YE...

you are also supposed to go pray for your father tomorrow morning you know. its the last day of prayer and your presence is compulsory.

Go Girl- Pitbull ft Trina

because this is sho fun.

PHOTO TAG/MEME

1. Ask me to take pictures of any aspect of my life you're curious about
2. Leave your requests as chatbox comments/msn/myspace msgs to this entry
3. Please look at the previous requests as to not do repeats
4. I'll snap the pictures and post them
5. Tag 10 people to do this too!


i tag .....
all my bloglinks! :D


i'll do it laa.
because i am so ball-ful, hor?

not letting you play the fool no more

Go On Girl- Ne-Yo

i am now eating fried chicken my grandma bought for me.

she buys fried chicken for me every thursday fron pasar mlm.

i love my grandma alot :)

today is a very lintang pukang day.
running, tarik tali, girldrama, bball under the rain, bball with the rain.


i feel very bad for mrTanBoonAun.
i mean, how does it feel to be the chairman of the houseteam and end up getting last for almost every race? this dude used to be known as The Gold Medalist okaay. this year, dikenali sbg The Pancit Man. poor guy. feel useless for letting alot of people down.

nevermind nevermind.

pasar mlm i belanja you okay? :)

and i'm gonna be your coach for next year ROFL

you know, i really love Wangsa Jaya.
i don't know why; like my semangat is really there.
i don't recall such fire when i was in ol school.
but yes, win or lose, i really love Wangsa Jaya. heee <3

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basketball under the rain is purely sick but super fun.
the feeling of wanting to do better is usually only there when raindrops are falling on your head.
ironically, something thats supposed to be hitting you down but has the hidden power to make you stand just that extra twenty minutes longer.

.......................

why do i sound like superwoman?

and Goh, Hanif, Aiman, Linda, Melydia, Jeremy and Samuel made my day.

because Goh is sickeningly stupid, he makes me laugh until tergolek on the swimming pool cement courtfloor. because Hanif is too gay to be true, that big-butt-and-boobs guy. because Aiman and I love running/ skiiing and then slide on the swimming pool cement courtfloor. because Linda was one of the only girls who was playing with me under the rain the whole time, and walked with me back to school. because Melydia simply rocks for being the Melydia i know <3. color="#339999">Jeremy is as gay as Hanif, just not as bodoh. because Samuel is so annoying that if he's not, i wouldn't love him.

bye Jeremy's girlfriend

eh where? O.O

you laa.

EEEEK~ *JuYi shrieks as Samuel tergoleks on the floor and laugh*

the day i am Jeremy's girlfriend, is the day Samuel and Goh are together.

there was one moment... when i slipped on the cement floor and fell on my hip, then my back, then my head REAL hard. the five of us were laughing as i lied on the waterfloor, waiting like a sissy for them to help me up. then Samuel said;

'omg that was EXACTLY the way Jeremy fell that day!'

aiyohh.
we were all basically, kneeling/lying on the floor laughing like chickenbutt hyenas for a straight ten minutes because you see; Jeremy fell about a week ago, and had a small concussion, resulting in him having momentary amnesia. he missed school a couple of days and had to wear a neck supporter thingy to keep his big gay head up. don't know why Goh was laughing though lol.


i kinda slipped and fell a couple of times.
especially once when i made a complete 360 degree turn on my foot and ended up falling on my whole arm. i looked like i was a drunkee attempting to breakdance.


and and and,
when we all lied on our bodies in a row and attempted to swim our way from the court's outline to the finishing line court's middle line. we were literally, waddling in swimming actions and climbing on each other. who wins...... ma who wins la xD


aah.
despite all the drama thats going on.....
i will forever love basketball, and the trainings. <33

everyday is a new day

for you to try something different

and learn something out of the box

Daylight Robbery- Imogen Heap

today my sister and i cried. HAHAAA
honestly speaking laa, my fatass sister jumps quite cun maan. like, she speedruns then she jump so high. WOOOOO even i can't do that. i was cheering like siaokia, and of course showing off that she's muh sistah lololol


but all you CACAT people;
had to boo her.
jealous foos. BOOO
see now; she only passed up til 1.13 m,
and was first to be disqualified.
when she sadly sobbed that she can pass up to 130 m.


she cried straight fifteen minutes man.
poor fat girl.

kakak sayang you okay? :) HAHAHAH EEEW

check out who got 98 for Biology yawww...
and at the same time got 20 for addmath LOL
sangat the pandai kan?

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i apologized like, fucking 1241907613 times and you went on babbing like tiuu. i already feel very guilty; you feel awesome lah hor make me feel even more guilty? very nice laa hor to be on the right side? and don't blame me for yelling at you okay? dgn tone suara awk, SIAPA LA TAK AGGRAVATED EN. and you all know i'm not the type that gets angry for stupid little, shitty bitch reasons. think i very free waste my saliva yelling at you ah?

and the misunderstanding is between ME and HER.

I myself WILL apologize to her.

TAK PAYAH YOU TWO ORANG TENGAH.

call me org tgh like shit hyprocrite.

sometimes i wonder whether you're real.

backing up your name with all the people telling me that you're full of shit

She had the right to say what she wanted. She had the right to tell me what the other one said. She's right about both of us being wrong.

mehh.*breathes in and out*

i don't even mean like, everything i say lol

all we four need to do.... is sit down and talk.

GO WANGSA JAYAAAAAA!

i am WongJuYi.
i've always been a bimbo fanatic of running events,
ever since i was in form1.


you'd see me sitting at a nearby tree,
at the school's beautiful new bleachers,
or just plain desperately, sitting at the grazing field
screaming my trachea out, cheering on friends and housemates.


baru first day screaming,
sudah ada soar throat.


congratulations, TangSiuWern!
you ran faster than olahragawati Siva maayn. ;D

congratulations also to Yvonne Lee!
the one who got butt cram HAHAHA
who also heard me cheering like sakai from the astaka :D

congratulations to Divya and Mely!
one runner, and one jumper who did extraordinary jobs.
despite what people say, you guys still make my world go round. xx

and to the pengerusi Wangsa Jaya;

mr TanBoonAun.

this year is MY year LOL
don't worry la; you're still the best male runner to me :)
caiyok caiyok! *screams like fangirl*


i love all you people who have been named above.
and not never to forget, LeeMeiYing as well. *big squishy hug*
i love you more than words can tell. <3<3<3


Ahmoi Chantek- Hujan

He's No You

guess who won a silver medal for lontar peluru babeeeeee. :D
picture shall be uploaded when received

'ah kak kurus cam kayu. camtu pn boleh dpt perak?'

-some random student-

i shall take that as a compliment LOL
and Yvonne should be raging with jealousy now *insert evil laughter*
and eii; please change to 012 la sayaaaaang. wasting money sms-ing 016. pfft


lets just say i have some nice, beefy arms.
*flexes muscles*

i cried just, broke down in school today.

haha no surprise; JuYi la weyh.

the never-able-to-handle-stress crybaby.

tears were flowing like Tsunami maan.

FooFy was so psyched; 'omg grandma DON'T CRYYYYYYYYY~~'

thanks for being there for me, honey. =)) *hugs*

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i talked to *** yesterday laa; about you and stuff

uhuh?

and i asked him like, whether he still has feelings for you or not

haha what did he say?

eh DUHH. stupid la you Ranjali.

sorry la ASKING ONI RIIIGHT

but i wanna keep low profile laa

why?

see two years ago; i kecoh-kecoh she my girlfriend all.

and i lost her.

i seriously, couldn't kembang, despite how yummy that last line sounded.

i actually wanted to just kneel down and cry.

.because you didn't lose her.

.she lost you.

maybe we will never have time for each other

She's No You- Jesse Mccartney

because i cannot stand it.

i took the pink cake box, off the old book shelf.
and dusted it off, as i haven't touched it in a while.


i opened the pink cake box.
i flicked open old letters, cards, papernotes.


memories flew into my face, hitting me like blood drenched slaps.
colours and glitter sprang out of the box, blinding me.
words of yesteryear drilled its way into my ears, driving me deaf.


i sat there and stared in silence.
salty water pouring out of my stinging eyes,
as i remember yesterday.


yesterday i wished i never chose to put away.
as i dream for it to come back.

Smash; Please Don't

i just watched The Holiday a while ago.
accompanied by a nice packet of sour onion crackers and warm mushroom soup. in my mom's cold yet cosy bedroom.
i love. :)





not so psyched about the movie, although it was really good.
but i was really excited that i heard a familiar voice so many times, singing the background music. as correct as I guessed, it was.......

Imogen Heap.

Electronic, alternative, ambientic, soul, pop and rock.

i first heard her music from dances, choreographed by the amazing Mia Michaels on SoYouThinkYouCanDance. audiences were hooked to the dance, as in, HOOKED TO THE DANCE ask other sytycd fans like Divya xD if you don't believe as much as they were to the music. and that was when fanbases grew bigger and bigger. if i'm not mistaken, they're also featured in the O.C for a few songs.


the lyrics are WAY COOL.
like you know, not the typical lyrics you hear in songs.
even the song titles are extremely different.
try Hide and Seek, The Moment I Said It, and Daylight Robbery.



doesn't she look like the nature version of Amy Winehouse? xD


well, people have different opinions and thoughts.
some say she's weird.
i say she's so cool :D:D

because there's beauty in breakdown

Just For Now- Imogen Heap

because we're all hypocrites.

people say things

that they don't realize

they are also doing what they're saying

and this is NOT just to the female basketball team.


Teardrops On My Guitar- Taylor Swift

there is no Valentine's Day.

i am NOT A GEEK! *goes absolute wack*
because i passed lompat jauh and lompat tinggi!
YEAH BABEHH I AM AN ACTIVE NERD; NOT A GEEK!


its really, a nice feeling la because...

• more than 3/4 students gagal-ed them. *bangga-ing*
• i gagal-ed both of them last year. bodoh
• which brought my spirits down
• because i thought i was no longer active
• and because Divya gagal-ed both this year HAHA

muahaha.
i am awesome.

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when you were sitting next to him in class, i was actually envious because you guys look so perfect for each other, and knowing that you have such a great guy who likes you, unlike me.

hahahah GIIIIRL.

1. i don't know if he really does like me
2. because i don't la lol stop convincing me, you lifeless people.
3. and i am currently crying bout it. haha crybaby
4. i'm sorry for you
5. please stay strong, and stop crying on the inside
6. because its better to let it out to us; your friends. : )

because i broke hearts

because i got my heart broken

because i saw hearts breaking

because i lost a friend

because i lost a father

Slipped Away- Avril Lavigne

The Kind Of Flawless I Wish I Could Be

we're all single on Valentine's daaaay

*momentary awkward silence*

hahaha.
that sucked like tahi lembu.

Miss Addmaths;

you can officially join Mr Physics in my list of failing subjects.

for real laa.
if i pass, i will kiss the tar road for you to see.
I WILL KISS IT FOR YOU TO SEE.


you know, the times you wish you could turn back time, and just adjust that little error that you made happen? i hate thinking about it. i like to think of moving on, and looking forward, looking on the brighter side; looking back at the error as a lesson, experience and something to learn from. alot of people know that i'm the type of person who find it difficult to move on from the past;


i remember when i was in old school,
this teacher, Cikgu Faizal, my moral teacher whom i loved like siaoo~ like, during my surprise bday party my besties made for me in standard six, they MADE SURE he was there as well. and he was. he got me a present tooh~ can't remember what it was, but yeah. and since he was only a trainee teacher, he eventually had to leave. i think i cried the day he left LOLLLL. and he gave all his moral students a small note, containing words of wisdom.


mine was the longest HAHA
*bangga-ing*





ESPECIALLY FOR WONG JU YI:

THE BRIGHTEST FUTURE

WILL ALWAYS BE BASED ON A FORGOTTEN PAST

YOU CAN'T GO ON WELL IN LIFE

UNTIL YOU LET GO OFF YOUR PAST, FAILURES AND HEARTACHES

that small piece of orange paper is still stuck on my shelf wall. =)

and it still means alot to me.

but what happens,

if that little error you made happen in the past......

the one that you have moved on, and learned from......

comes back and haunt you?

Teardrops On My Guitar- Taylor Swift

Fuji Apples

eh Div. come we study addmaths together

yeeeeah.
pergi her house....

eat like kambing.

then sleep.

then play computer.

then go home.

you had to ask you know, JuYi.
you had to ask.


and PHYSICS.
WAAAH
I AM SECTION 5'S TOP PHYSIC STUDENT YOOOO~
i'ma score 101 lah weyh, because i am that awesome.


just to shorten my whole upsetion;
i only understood less than quarter of the paper.
i wanted to cry but i couldn't because i found it so funny; the fact that before finishing the paper, i knew i was going to fail.

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my aunt said i'm flat LMAOOOOO

thats why... i ask you to use Fuji apples

hahaha.
and thats why i love him so much.

second chances do exist

This Is Your Life- Switchfoot

eh E birthday coming laaa..

its in a few hours, Kenny.

ya la coming la.

stupid Kenny Chee lol


and i've tried this test like, 6208159843 times and this is as far as i can go;

98 words

Touch Typing

DAAAMN MunYee's fast.

because it is too painful to let out.

so i went to visit daddy yesterday morning.

'come on talk to your father. i bet he wants to listen to your stories. how your studies are. your upcoming bball tournament. your exam next week.'

JuAnn talked.
my brother talked.
i kept silent.


it is not that i have nothing to say......

it just that i have too much to say.

that i know, if i open my mouth, tears will just pour out uncontrollably.

so i held back my tears.
as my throat burned in exhausting torture,
and my eyes scrunged up all together.


i feel horrible that i did not talk to him just now.
so the next time i visit him, i'm just going to write a letter.


i am going to write about,
how hard it is for me living without him around.
how painful life is without seeing him anymore.
how sinful it is to be happy from what has happened.
how torturous it is that on one can see my tears.
how much i miss seeing my father walk through the house gate, opening the door and calling me, when he comes back from work.


it is going to be a winning essay, daddy.
i've written four full pages already.
don't want you to get bored up there or whatever LOL

as i sit in this lonely living room alone,

tears dripping, soaking up the keyboard.

i love you daddy.

always did, always have, always will.

This Is Your Life- Switchfoot

i've got four angpaus so far! :D
eyh thats sort of a big thing, because i'm not even celebrating it this year.
i'm not even visiting many houses, but yeah. FOUR ANGPAUS! :D


and hallelujah.
my mom didn't kill me.


when she got home, she didn't even talk to me bout it.
it was later on when i decided to tell her about what happened and yeah laa, she's pissed coz i called my sister a f***er but HAAAAA she totally agreed with all of you;

MY SISTER DESERVED IT.

apparently,
my mom doesn't like the younger being rude to the elder as well
and she knows i'm never the kind of person who cari-s pasal.
elders rule, youngers drool :):)


i am currently in Suzanne's sister's house,
eating as i watch them do the work finishing up on some YE work.


and the computer i'm using right now is WAAAY canggih.
picture will be uploaded soon ;)



Apologize- One Republic ft Timbaland

think of **

** *** oh i love youuuuuuuuuu

please please be trueeeeeee

HAHAHAHA Mei.
and Logan.

why what happen?

my mood damn off coz i have a fucking rude sister.

go do taichi laa. no wait that one too fast. do wushu. calmiiiiing

i dunno la.
i just cannot.stand.the.younger.being.rude.to.the.elder.
i NEVER raised my voice towards any elderly before. except when emotionally unstable, for real. i don't even want to explain the story because it was very obvious that she cari-ed pasal with me.


i totally yelled at my sister for being such a rude woman.
and i just screamed it all out; fucker, go fuck your fucking self.


and i HATE it when my temperature rises.
because i'm the type of person who .... is usually quite laidback, and cool... so my. anger. is. just. horrible. far worse than any other anger leash.


after yelling,
my hands got all trembly. its actually still slightly trembling
and i couldn't focus my mind on anything.
like a huge blur sweep.

ade potential to physically abuse dohh

-conscience-

so i decided. this cannot go on anymore.
while she was watching her television, i raised the volume of the computer. and as much as she talked yabbed and nagged, i ignored her until she said;

'you better lower the volume or i'll off the computer i tell you'

when she got up i stood directly in her face and gave her the i'm-a-bitch-because-you're-one-as-well-and-i-don't-care-what-you-gonna-do-to-me face. and she yabbed and yabbed and yabbed and i just sarcastically nodded and went all 'i SO AGREE WITH YOU, sister dearest. only support yourself because you're such a loser'. she got .... SO TURNED OFF HAHA she called my mom to complain.


the best part;
my mom couldn't take her shit.
so while my sis was complaining, my mom cut the line.

i.will.be.chopped.into.pieces.when.my.mom.gets.home.

its worth it though. : )

what a great start to CNY.

this is soooo late but ummm...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY INEZ SUE!

see; i'm the only one who posted 'Inez Sue' compared to other bloggers :D

i wish i could post up a picture of the card i made for her.
but its currently with another YE member because they thought of selling copies of it for Vday/Mother's Day/Teacher's Day/Father's Day/ all the day day lahh. see. my card is THAT NICE YOU KNOOOOOW.


speaking of Vday.....


macam tahun lepas lahh.
i'm not celebrating it,
and don't expect anything at all from anyone.
however, i hope i can pay extra attention to all my loved ones.
you know...... just to let them know that they're really special in my life =)


and as for that someone special to me;
his birthday is only like.. three days before Valentines. i've already bought a present that i think he will like because he's so disgustingly gay lol, and all my items ready to make his card. i actually plan on telling him about my feelings towards him. i'm not gonna go all drama poo like 'OHMYGAWD I LIKE, STILL SO LOVE YOU SO MUCH HONEYBABY PLEASE COME BACK TO ME DARLLLIIIIING'. i'm just gonna take it easy and slow;

• i still have feelings for youuuh
• it never faded for the past year
• i don't expect a reply
• because.... i don't la xD
• bangga la got people confess to you even before valentines lol
• happy birthday :)

somewhere in me, i am still abit scared and cowardious hahaJuYi's got really good unique vocabulary to do it. maklumlah; i'm like, the world's biggest chicken ever. i am still not too keen on my amazing idea because;

• i scared he freak out
• coz he don't like me
• then he won't talk to me anymore
• and think i'mma freakazoid idiot
• boohoo :(

well,
Happy Chinese New Year to aaaaaaaall.
collect alot of angpaus..
and if you feel that you cannot menampung so many....
there's always hands open here for free :D

as fireworks exploded, signalling the first day of the Lunar New Year..

children outside ran amok and folks celebrating in joy.

none of it could distract my filled mind

as i sat there, writing in my journal

with tears pouring out of my eyes

Sexyback- Justin Timberlake

broken shell.

she was so dumb, she claimed that she shoplifted

when she went into the supermarket to steal a free sample

or something like that HAHA

aih screw my screwed up skin lah.
if anyone knows how to add chatbox/ profile to this skin, please help mee! :D
or when i find a nice one on blogskins in future, i'll use it. : )

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aiyoh.
i felt so bossy and rude during the handle-out-the-newspaper-to-the-students time.
yahh sure i'm the leader, but wah i felt like i was being so .... overpowering.
tak biasa la become leader.
i'm usually the follower. pfft


so yeah.
i'd like to apologize to all you YE members who helped me out today, especially when i screwed up the most important part. sorry if i was ever mean, nasty or boastful. and thank you for putting up with my careless-ness. =)

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after a grueling, i-don't-even-feel-like-participating-anymore-because-the-under-15-team-is-better-than-the-under-eighteen-team-i-know-right-shut-up basketball session at wangsa siaga, i went back to school to have a drink and wait for my transport home.

don't you feel sad or cry knowing that your dad's no longer around?

i paused for a few seconds.

thinking of the best answer i could give to my caring friend.

well.

i am sad.

i do feel like crying.

but i cannot help but smile knowing that my father's in a better place.

somewhere where he will never have any burdens anymore.

somewhere where he will never have heartaches anymore.

and as complicating as it may sound...

the best for the both of us was to be away from each other.

please don't get me wrong.

my father is one man i truly love and admire.

what i mean is that....

i love my father so much, i can feel his pain. just sitting in the same room with him, i could inhale the depression he exhaled. almost like a deadly virus that spreads. and just like a virus, it affected my whole body. mentally, especially. i had trouble paying attention in class. i felt a huge pain in the chest whenever i look at him. i cried every night. it bothered my sleep. it affected my attitude and persona. i evolved into a quiet and cold person. i grew negative towards everything in life.

there were times when i thought...

hey.

if i was no longer around, wouldn't that just decrease my dad's burdens?

and that is... commiting suicide.

and yes.

i have stared at a knife, figuring whether to take it and just end my life in an instant.

i honestly.

would die for that man.

love that kills;

because the best for us was being apart from each other

because it was the only way to bring positivity back into my life

because all that he has carried can finally be let off his shoulders

my friend sat in atonement.

as she stared at me with blunt eyes.

and...

knowing her as a strong, overly confident and toughasrock girl; one that steps on people; one that is hated by many; one that teachers despise; a student that has been blacklisted and has a record for being the most rebellious female in school.......

she started to breakdown, in a way i never imagined her to.

tears poured out of her eyes like silent rivers.

her rockshell fell completely broken.

i knew it wasn't because she was touched by my story or anything, because the tears looked too painful and deep to be true. so i asked her what was wrong.

'i yelled at my father a few days ago. because he was taking alot of money from my mother. it wasn't his first time. i told him off because i was so upset with him. on Saturday, he had a heart attack....... and i'm so thankful that the rush heart surgery was a success. he's fine now. although i still feel so bad for ever yelling at my father. i feel so bad, JuYi. i really do'

This I Promise You- N'Sync

something is very wrong with me.
i repeat; VERY wrong.


i rarely go out to hang anymore.
why?

i don't have nice clothes to wear

and i am serious

today, i just turned down three offers to go out.
and not like, jalan-jalan you know! to go to CHURCH.


yeah sure.
'go church is not to show people how you dress, how rich you are....'
please. that is not even my point.


gahh how am i to put this........
i have no self confidence. yup, thats it.


you don't mind me going to church in pyjamas ah?
because basically, thats the only thing i wear at home lately.
i don't even wear shorts anymore because my messed-up mentality tells me i look fat.


even if you do see me wearing shorts sometimes..
i am actually feeling EXTREMELY uncomfortable,
and worrying too much about how i look.


therefore, i prefer staying at home alone.
to myself, the computer, and my work.

which is WROOOONG!

people need to go to out to socialize, enjoy life.

and a pre-anorexic as most of you say, sucker like me can't.

understand why i don't like being tall and big now?
understand why i'd rather be a normal sized person?


what am i to do? =/


Happily Never After- Nicole Scherzinger

i am in.....
the STEP UP TWO CRAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAZE





CHINCHEN I NEED THE TICKETS.

VERY VERY BADLY.

LIKE A MOUSE NEEDS RICE.
hahaa. like a mouse needs rice wtf xD



as most of you don't know..
i actually went to the theatre twice to watch Step Up last year.


not enough;
i also bought the dvd and have watched it two hundred times.
and my Channing Tatum craze started from there. *drools*


i am trying to come up with a short dance video but i just have no time yet. =(
just wait la yeah? wait,
i'm gonna win those kambing tickets. JUST YOU WAIT!


Low- Flo-rida ft T-Pain