because i takble control lah.

once upon a time, i used to make fun of people who were into this crazy number puzzle called sudoku. BECAUSE i am not a math whiz, i looked at it as waste of time. and the 9 squares filled with numbers which contained 9 smaller squares also filled with numbers in each of them just drove me insane.


basically,
i thought it was hard la.


while i was in the hospital, my mom who spent time to teman me aww had with her these like twenty seven sheets of newspaper cutouts that were aaaaaall sudoku. so yeah her presence was so sincere la alright, moving on...

my plans on studying Biology today was screwed up.

because i spent hours addictively completing sudoku puzzles.

my fastest time is ten minutes so far and that is a very big achievement, thank you

Angelina- The Bravery

because reality is skin deep.

Jeremy spent ten minutes deciding on which BB gun to buy.
OHMYWORD.

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i would like to say,

to the girl who sits by herself quietly in class,

i appreciate how you have been a really good friend to me. i appreciate how you don't judge me and treat me like that pretty model-like girl as most of the others perceive me. i like how you have come out from your shell and being a bit more open and verbal with your personality.


i understand that you have often asked yourself whether some people are only going to you to make use of your intelligence. and i want you to know that i am not one of them. and i pray you gain just that little bit more confidence in yourself so that you don't ever have ask yourself that question again.


because you are a beautiful person,
and you truly shine from the inside out.
and that is why i love you.

to the boy who stands in the middle,

i hope it is okay with you that i am trying to let someone new into my life. deep inside, i know you are still very special to me but i notice that you have tried moving on and so have i. no one knows whether we will ever be together again. maybe we will, maybe we won't. only time and God will tell.

i can't decide whether to walk away from you just yet,

so i am deciding to keep you on the middle line.

and so,
i wish you all the best if you have someone else on your mind,
and if you don't, that girl is going to be very lucky to have you :)

to the girl who still holds a special place in my heart,

i hope you know that when i sometimes avoid talking to you, it is because i don't want to let myself drown into your stories and explanations. i don't want to end up being like the others. i don't want to end up not having my own principles as a person, and only believing in something when i don't know the other half of the story.

i don't blame you for being like that.

that was how you are raised.

i sometimes wish you would not bitch talk about my friends like that. you know, these people mean something in my life. i wish i could tell you that deep down, these people are genuine and they are nice. i understand that some of them have hurt you in a certain way but not all of them did and yet you still talk about them as if you know them that well. it doesn't give you the right to influence others with your accusations.


so now,
i'm walking away.


but do know i'll always stick around if you need me.
because somehow, you are still special to me.
and i still love you like my sister.
and i always will.

to the boy who made it into the picture,

we may never actually turn out to be a serious couple because we laugh too much haha but i definitely i like where we are standing; which is as good friends. and that is exactly where i want us to be. to be in a serious relationship at sixteen is tough and maybe i just realized that. i have yet to know who you really are underneath all those silly jokes, so i'll just take my time with that.


and i know i am talking as if i know you like me shameless plug alert, cough cough
but i am a girl, and girls can sense these things.
shut up x)


or so you probably don't like me,
but i definitely like you.
and i love how you just make me laugh and enjoy life.


if we ever turn out to make it as a couple that would be a real comedy, i hope that no matter what, our friendship remains the same. because i cannot afford to lose a friend like you.

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it is very obvious that the celebrity world can be a whole lot of fake but i do believe that at least 20% is not. you know, i do believe that the lies and scandals are swept under the carpet very well but at the end of the day, some of these people are actually human just like us. how long can they put on a show?


for example, i was watching E! how ironic earlier and they were showing a more inside and personal look on the Pussycat Dolls. i glued myself to the tv and i don't know why i just felt like watching it although i already know the PCD's history inside out. everyone knows i was an incredibly big fan of them like two years ago but then my love for them faded, especially after Carmit left. however, the love never died. i still enjoy their music and get inspired by them.

how can you be inspired by women who literally strip, pole dance, wear skimpy clothing and tell boyfriends all over the world that they are hotter than their girlfriends?

-common question that i faced

maybe thats because i don't only see it that way.


i shall not explain again why the Pussycat Dolls once upon a time, helped in changing certain aspects of my life because they definitely did and i will never forget it. :)

so if only

we could just stop judging for a while

and look at it from the inside.

what about now?

What About Now ( Acoustic )- Daughtry

this evening was the most fun i've had in ages.
lets do it again :D

and you finally showed up at my doorstep :)

Say Ok- Vanessa Hudgens

i'm wasting my time, re-watching some Jabbawockeez videos.
gahh how i regret not going for the MTV Asia Awards this year.

i would've totally made a Jabba banner :(

i think i'll run over to Big Apple for some donuts later.
you need some fattening up- random stupid friend


go listen to David Cook's Light On!
it sounds amazing and probably not as addictive as Archuleta's Crush for some, but it still sounds very good. :)


Lean With It, Rock With It- Dem Franchise Boyz

because it got to me.

got tagged by the oldest eldest Vergara.
do la if you want.


RULE #1 People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

RULE #2 Tag 6 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse.These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by continue this game by sending it to other people.


1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
channel my inner Blair Waldorf :)
oh my effing gawd!?


2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
to have a tumtum with the diameter of 24 cm :D


3. Whose butt would you like to kick?
definitely JLo's; wanna see whether its her butt or my leg that gets fractured.


4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
run outta my house nekkid.


5. Pretty but fat/Ugly but slim, which one would you prefer?
Hot but Short. now doesn't that sound better :)


6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
definitely being loved. love love love.


7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
until i feel my boobs sagging,
then i'll go buy a husband from Vietnam, if I have to.


8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
again, oh my effing gawd!?


9. If you like to act with someone, who will it be? your gf/bf or an actress/actor?
i don't know why but i feel like my future boyfriend is gonna suck at acting, so i'll go with Penn Badgley any day. :D


10. Will you invite for Ex bf/gf to your wedding dinner?
yes.
one's a family friend, one's my brother's friend, one's a best friend, one not sure what friend... so basically all must invite la hor.


11. How would you see yourself in ten years time?
winning an Emmy.
when i grow up, i wanna be famous i wanna be a star i wanna be in movies~


12. What's your fear?
losing my mom.


13. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
Emilio Jun Wen/Ren sorry can't remember which one Vergara.
ummm.. he's my neighbour whom i've known all my life?
oh; he's shorter than me :)


14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
single and rich. duhh; go flirt la.


15. What's the first thing you do when you wake up?
ugh stupid alarm shut uuup~


16. Would you give all in a relationship?
yes i would.
i'm a sucker for love, bleh.


17. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
the hotter one.
if they're of the same level of hotness? the richer one!


18. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?
forgiving itself is hard but still doable.
but forgetting is definitely impossible.


19.Do you prefer being single or having a relationship?
i honestly would want to feel what it is like to be in a relationship again but like always, i'm just waiting for Mr Right to sweep me off my feet.

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a few little things made me smile today,

despite all the crap my brain was going through.

i got my birthday presents from Meiiii.

saya dapat;

• macadamia-covered chocolates that taste like whoah
• the cutest envelope in the world yes i consider this a present
• three page essay sialll~

i went to the fridge and ate a chicken alright

its nice to know that someone i love very much knows EXACTLY what i love; sentimental handmade thingy majingies and good ol' chocolate. :) the last birthday essay i had was when i was fourteen which was when i had a boyfriend who understood me as well xD. i think i had tears in my eyes. poohoo~

THANK YOU LEE MEI YING

=)

you are truly an amazing person and i am so blessed to have you as my best friend.

i love you more than my Jacob's Weetameal bizkits. xx

i got a YE card from a junior!

her name's Lyana and i knew her thru basketball. i remember my first impression of her was that omg she looks more chinese than me!, and what do you know, she actually spoke chinese and put me to pure embarassment. and i remember aaaaaaaages ago while i was promoting YE products in her class, she came up to me and asked:

JuYi ah, when's your birthday haa?

20th September. why wanna buy me card ah? hahaha~

... yeah :D

hahahahhaha........ OH WAIT, SERIOUSLY?

mmm, yeah :D

i actually forgot that she even purchased the card and while Samuel and I were walking SiuWern home ( just because she lives 23 steps away from the school, doesn't mean it can't be a dangerous walk ), she passed me the card and i just lost it. haa~

thank you Lyana :)

i have real good friends.

you honestly ask yourself; is that what real friends are like? let me tell you, real friends... they are the ones who are there for you when you just need someone; they are the ones who care for you, care about how you feel, love you, trust you, respect you.. that is what real friends are like.

i guess i forgot the real meaning of that word.

thank you for reminding me that i'm not alone.

thank you for reminding me that you are one of them. :)

Light On- David Cook

because this disease knows no cure.

went blog hopping for a bit. haven't done that in a while.

Why should I give pieces of myself away to people who don't appreciate it? And end up empty, so empty, broken and worthless at the end of it all. Why should I be the only one who try so hard, when the people who should be paying attention don't bloody care?- Jolene


I hate the fact that it is the people I let inside that hurts me the most-Nafisa

I have already cried today. and i don't think i want to cry anymore as i need to reserve as much body fluid as possible. i'm still not well. yet. i have faith that i will someday heal completely from this disease that knows no cure. and its so ironic, how both of these problems actually contribute to each other. in a less complicated manner, problem A is the reason for problem B, whereas problem B is also the cause of problem A. how messed up does that feel? i can't even tell you.


i'm a sanguine if thats how you spell it
i'm a generally, very sensitive person, although i may not show it from time to time. and i know i can never change that. i'm not ashamed by the fact that i have feelings for every single thing that happens. that is the way i am. and i share a love/hate relationship with it. right now, i am loving it.

but will you ever accept me for who i really am?

i will never be the person you are.

heck, i don't even want to be the person you are.

i admire you for different reasons, despite the fact that you don't realize that you are also imperfect like everyone else.

and maybe thats just what makes the world go round.

different people; different characters and personalties.

or else,

life would be just a plain old butter cake.

thank you to the amazing person who spared some time for me,

and lent me a shoulder when i needed cry

i hope i didn't crinkle your blouse

but thank you for listening

thank you for just being there

and thank you for enlightening my burdens

Warwick Avenue- Duffy

dear God,

why is this happening to me?

why won't i recover yet?

why do i have to go through this?

why me?

God; why am i this weak?

i won't ask You to take away this burden.

but i will ask You to help carry this burden with me.

for this burden is too heavy to carry myself.

please,

i don't have much time.

i need my life back.

i want my life back.

Yellow- Coldplay

because either way, it's still the same.

i guess it is normal to feel this certain way.


of course, it hasn't gone away yet.
at least i think it will.


so much to say,
so little words.

you should be happy that things are not going the way you want it to

coz if they did, the only one who would be in fault is you

because it's a funny story. ( Part Three )

is saying this has been the worst 16th birthday ever fair?

looking at what i've just gone through,

i guess it is.

:)

thank you to everyone who has helped me through this. it has been so bitter, words can't even describe. Mei tolong jgn feel guilty. you are the first person i want to see when i come back to school okay? i love you *big hug*. thank you to everyone who has visited me in the past five days. thank you especially to those who came today and made me laugh away all the pain. you all have no idea how much it meant to me to feel a little less bitter than i was the day before.


thank you to everyone who wished me.
via sms, calls, call all the way from the States/Australia, blog message, friendster message, comments... i read every single one of them. just no time to reply and please forgive me for that.


those who wished me at midnight.
before midnight.
right after midnight.
5 am O.O


those who tried to call at midnight.
but i never picked up.
again i apologize.


those who planned a not-so-surprise-anymore-lol party for me.
so so sorry for not being able to make it.
i appreciate the effort and timing.
thank you so much.


happy birthday to KUHAN.
my fellow macha brother,
who is born on the same day as me.
who owns the same baby pillow as me since six.
and still uses it.

pray for me tomorrow, guys.

it might be the last of me.

it might be not.

now will you help me laugh away the pain one more time?

because it's a funny story. ( Part Two )

yaaay.

i've been discharged :)

pain's still there though.

okay, so where did i stop.....
ah yes.


my surgery was at twelve midnight.
i can't remember why but i was laughing when i was in the surgery room. with the surgeons and nurses. and ten seconds after they inject me with the sedative, i just passed out. and the next thing i knew, my surgery was over.

but my stomach hurt alot more after the surgery. O.o

dammit.

i got released on Thursday evening,
but was feeling so bloody giddy and.. vomitty(?).



my fever came back and i vomitted out my dinner. boohoo x(
so the whole of yesterday ( Thursday ) and today, i just vomitted and vomitted and my fever depressed me even more. but now i'm feeling alot better lah, and waiting for Gossip Girl's Dark Knight to load. :)


did i tell you my that i am not allowed to eat fruits and vegetables until told by the doctor in further notice? how SICK is that? i know many tweens would celebrate but i am just bloody sad. i can't eat grapes? or papaya? NO CAPSICUM?


i can't go to tuition, or school for about another week.
i can't go anywhere. just... have stay at home.
more than half the day, must be spent on the bed.
yupp. i'm NOT ALLOWED.
why laa must all of this happen.

what an amazing 16th birthday.

definitely. note sarcasm

i never thought that i'd catch this

lovebug again

Lovebug- Jonas Brothers

because it's a funny story. ( Part One )

HOLLERH!
guess where in the world i am blogging froooom~

Gleneagles Hospital :D

yes yes yes,

i've been admitted into the hospital for more than a day and i already cannot resist not using the Internet. haaaa

so here's the scoop lah.

i couldn't get my ass up to go to school on Tuesday for that, i apologize to PnLim, Anthea, Edna and whoever else it may concern due to a fever. the fever grew worse throughout the day and whatever i ate, couldn't be digested and came back out yuck. so by 7pm which is after hours of suffering, my mom decided to take me to the clinic.

to be sure, you might as well bring your daughter to the hospital lah.

ummm, why doct?

you might be having appendix.

.... what?

i highly doubted that i actually had a case of appendicitis. because i don't remember instantly jumping around or wiggling my butt after eating my daily meals. bt i still had to pack my bag. boohoo. btw, i am not a fan of staying at hospitals and such

i went to Gleneagles, and they immediately injected my right hand to take out some blood for checking. here's the funny part; the nurse couldn't detect where my vein was. so she injected once and had to poke here and there to find my vein. mind you; the needle was already in my wrist. so she was poking the needle around, while it was in my wrist omg!

after finally getting scared that she'll murder me, she called the doctor to help her out. this one, story lagi beeeest.

sorry ah, as we might be torturing you for quite a while.

oh NO NO, go ahead doctor. i'll just die anyway, its okay.

hahah. you have really fine veins ah, girl. i've never faced such difficulty before.

omg really?

yeah i mean look at me; i'm already sweating.

so the doctor..... was also poking around my wrist to detect a vein...... for the second time. OHMYGOD.

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so it was confirmed.

i did have appendix like its not obvious enough by now

some lady had to x-ray my stomach first to check the level of my appendicitis. you know that thingy that doctors use on pregnant women's stomachs to check on their baby? yupp. i had that thingy done to me as well xD it was so ticklish because a) the machine was cold and b) my bladder was full.

ummm nurse, can i go pee first?

oh no no no cannot. because the doctor say must have the bladder full then only can x-ray properly bla bla bla~

so when i was going through the x-ray scanning, i think the doctor was annoyed with me coz i kept laughing and she had to constantly tell me to relax.

you're too tensed ah, girl. try to relax a bit.

it'd be a WHOLE lot easier if i just went and pee first :)

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by 11:00 p.m, my surgeon finally came to see me.

i had an impression that he was a British Indian, because he had this super hot English slang and was very charming xD. eh my mom found him cute as well, kay?

i'll be back, kawan-kawan. ;D

got lady wanna use Internet.

Everytime- Lincoln Hawk

because life can get interesting.

i probably have some Indian blood in me.
because,



i love the food. this one, undeniable
i love the culture.
i love the colours.
i love the lifestyle.

so what is better than to be sang Happy Birthday in Tamil while feasting on some delicious mutton curry with naan in a Punjabi Club? :) i even got to request a Tamil song to the club singer during the dinner with family and friends. heh

and hollerh,

Adrian's getting me something for my birthday! :DD

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BEWARE.

HIGHLY 18SX AND NOT FOR THE OVER SERIOUS.

i may not know these guys that well,

but their videos make me laugh.

and Izhar's really gay.

especially this one.

Cookie Jar- Gym Class Heroes

because its just another crush.

i'm feeling very crushy; almost like David Archuleta's Crush song if i may say so. i am still a Cookie at heart okaaay :)


not that i want to,
but my feelings are very unavoidable lah.


i spent an hour at tuition waiting like a moronic idiot for the boy to enter class. i remember twenty thousand years back, he was the one who had a crush on me shameless plug alert. cough cough and i was that typical nerdido girl who spent her life reading books and trying almost too hard to be cool and responding like 'haa?' when it came to the subject of the opposite species.

i remember when not only his friends teased me,

but his teachers as well.

and i swear, if i go back to my old school tomorrow for just a plain visit, the teachers would still be teasing me about that same boy.

lets look at how different the scenario is today.

i'm being the typical eight year old girl; waiting for the nerdido boy who probably doesn't even remember me anymore who now spends his life reading books and unlike me back then, doesn't care whether his worn out slippers are cool or not and responding like 'what?' when it came to the subject of his opposite species.


oh Lord.
grant me mercy lah.

but then again,

my feelings come and go like the weather.

so yeah; i'm just being a girl. :)

Ready For The Floor- Hot Chip

because quite serious matter.

Boy: Teacher watched as students beat me up


KUALA LUMPUR: A Form Four student has reported to the police that he was beaten up by more than 20 students in front of his school in Taman Wangsa Maju here.

The 16-year-old boy claimed that a teacher and guard who saw the incident did not go to his aid.

“After I was beaten up, the teacher even had the nerve to tell me to go home and come back tomorrow but warned me to not make it an issue,” the student said.

He said he was beaten up by the students aged between 16 and 17 at 1.20pm on Wednesday because he had accidentally bumped into the girlfriend of one of the students during recess on the same day.

“I had immediately apologised but the girl complained to her boyfriend that I didn’t,” he said.

The student’s father, Raj Kumar, 41, a fitness instructor, said he was worried about the increasing trend of students being beaten up in school and getting away with it.

“No action has been taken against these students who terrorise others even though police reports have been lodged,” he said after lodging a police report in Wangsa Maju Seksyen 1 station yesterday.

The school authorities were not available for comment.

so many absolutely wrong things about this news.

1. 20 against ONE? dude, its like putting David against twenty Goliaths.

2. langgar girlfriend, kena belasah?

3. boy already said sorry, but still kena belasah?

4. since when did girls become so stupid?

5. and then make the boys look even stupider?

6. NO ACTION TAKEN IMMEDIATELY?

7. what in the world was the teacher and the guard doing?

8. what in the world was the teacher THINKING?

deyyy. what is this?

please no silly comment. shall i repeat, this is my blog.

EDIT

you know whats the best way to get the real story?

ask laa those who witnessed the fight. d-u to the h.

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today, i fell into a longkang.

i find it rather humorous and karmarous(?) because right before i fell, i was teasing and making fun of my two friends about the names that they would give their children some day.

would you name your son Curtis?

i can imagine him growing up to be a weird nerd and just... blah.

okay la fiiine.

its not nice to be making fun of names.

serious matter, serious matter.

Get Back- Demi Lovato

because so semangat.

since people are already scared to upload the eps on YouTube,
why not try going here :D

www.watchgossip.com

but first, you have to download Zango in order to watch the full second ep of GossipGirl, Never Been Marcused, without any interruptions or parts. its the full fifty minutes babeee ;D

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i realize that i am afraid of writing how i really feel and what i really wanna say in LyricalSteps. i somehow, have a fear of what other people in this case, you readers think of me and somehow, like any other typical girl, the opinion of plain strangers or not-even-close-friends matter to me in an odd way.

and since my blog is really the opposite of private, i don't even know who are the people and how many people actually waste at least a minute of their life reading my blog. maybe thats why people see me as shallow? because all i blog about is GossipGirl, Jonas Brothers and pimple problems?

oh there you go.

i'm thinking about people's opinions again.

but maybe also because i fear that what i say can cause anger or discomfort in certain readers. i know it has happened before a few times and they were definitely not my proudest moments. after all, everyone has a different opinion and perspective on everything and i for one, grasp the most out and never-usually-explored angle on a subject all the time. thats why i hold the title/nickname Weirdo.

however,

my intentions are, never have and never will be mean.

if my feelings do leak out onto this blog every once in a while, its just how i really feel about a certain problem or situation. it either gets thrown into Forgotten Land or stays in memory until it evaporates itself away unconsciously.

wait why am i even talking about this again?

study JuYi.

exam in fourty days.

i also realize that i am a booknerd in school but the total opposite at home

Hasta La Vista- Camp Rock cast

birthday wishlist update! :D


black hoodie.
preferrably cotton, body-length zip and just plain.


don't get the glitter glitter got strawberry apetah all.
:D



black shirt dress.

again, just simple and plain.

:)

graphic T-shirts.
may i repeat; TEEshirts yes.
i don't really fancy collars and what not.
and if can, no yellow, orange or pink good God.


a few very cute examples;

size M or L :)

but really la.
all these stuff, i am bound to get one day.
and i am a very fussy person so it'll be harder if you get something i don't like xD so tak payah get for me also can. okay okay? :)

because awesomely sick.

today is like char kuey teow and roti canai campur together.
yes i always use food to compare.

a whole lotta nice, but a whole lotta uglehh.

i am deciding not to blog about the uglehh reserved for private blog use,
so i'll blog a little bit on the nice.


Camp Rock best like wooo~
lets just put it this way; i'm an awesome amazing person who just decided to participate in some awesome Camp Rock slogan petition and ended up as one of the awesome winners. so tadaa!~ four awesome premiere tickets at awesome Pavillion. how awesome is that?


got awesome special guest appearance from close friend who showed up at the premiere with us. who doesn't want to be named because takut reputation in school kena pukia hahaha.

half of this post is dedicated to my friend, Divya who is now looking at leng chai in country of leng chais.

so my friends and i were walking in KLCC on the way back home and there was a malay silat performance going on at the same time at the centerpoint of the building. i swear i recognised that one dancer; he has shaggy but spiked up hair. and so, i sneaked up closer to see whether i actually knew the person or not.

oh wait.

i do know that person.

thats the dancer boy from that dancer show who likes my dancer friend, Divya. *dramatic gasp*

so i told my friends about it, and then one of my friends tells us to step back. i didn't know what was his initial plan. suddenly, he yelled out DIVYAA! and we all naturally ran away, like the cowardly chickens we always have been. i wonder whether he looked.. hmmm~

i have gone awesomely headwire

is this really what i am feeling?

I'm A Terrible Person- Rooney

because GG's never been better.

Gossip Girl spoilers ahead!

if you want more drama effect when you actually watch the upcoming second episode, Never Been Marcused, please don't be an idiot like me and read the spoilers and then go Chuckerazy.

however, if you're really desperate....

and now,
Gossip Girl speaks for herself. :)


Gossip Girl: What's this? Chuck's date and Blair's date are mother and son? And Nate and Blair are exes? And Nate and the mother are in a book club? Now there's a novel plot twist.

because anyone can be stupid.

yes, and i am talking about you, you and you. of course, i won't exclude myself. for i also have done a lot of stupid things in my past that i have forgived but can never forget. it doesn't matter whether you're in the top class or in the high Gossip Girl society or whatever. at different levels and different situations, anyone can just be stupid.


examples of my stupidity?
not knowing that Italy is actually a country.
eating onions and thinking they're chicken.
wearing shoe on wrong foot.
doing air drums when i don't even know how to play the guitar.
kicking the football into my guy friend's **** sorry Emilio
talking to my dog, expecting her to say hi or something.
asking 'kenapa gradient mesti bengkok?' wait, gradient is the bengkok one right?
blurting out my mind a little too much as 99% of them are just a result of thinking too much and obsessive imagination

semua orang bodoh.

Serena Van Der Woodsen, Blair Waldorf, Chuck ohmygodhot Bass..

need i mention Nate Archibald?

the man is like the epitome of stupidity.

you think Badawi hasn't done something stupid before?
i bet he has woke up once and forgot to wear his underwear.
*joke is just an example ah, abang-abang polis*


is there any way we can prevent stupidity from happening?
hmmm, maybe yes maybe no.

and now nothing else can be done except pray.

Fell In Love Without You- Motion City Soundtrack

because i'm always the only one.

GOSSIP GIRL'S PREMIERE EP WAS FANTASTICAL!

and it sucks, the fact that GG always makes me cry. roflmbao

though i would say,
some of you might not be satisfied enough.



due to the fact that the level of drama was not as high and scandalous as usual and they decided to focus more on the twisting, banyakliketiutriangle plot in theSeason2's first episode. somehow i think it was because of the many spoilers that i feasted on. dammit MotherChucker.

Gossip Girl Season 2 Episode 1

Summer Kind Of Wonderful

part 1 part 2 part 3 part 4 part 5

cepat cepat tengok kalau mau!
sebelum itu babi youtube remove dia!


also, if you wanna know any of the great songs that are used in Gossip Girl eps/previews, always let me know and i'll try my best to help. ;D

karma's a bitch, ain't it?

we know Blair Waldorf is.

and yes,

WHY DO I HAVE TO ALWAYS BE THE ONLY ONE?

now that is where my dear private blog comes in use ;DD

Reverse Of Shade- The Windupdeads