Hold Me Rain HOLD ME!

i am not screaming.
neither am i lunging out. uhhhh~ am too sad to scream.

because.i.am.missing.Rain's.concert.
i seriously feel like crying.
maybe later when i sleep la so ......

he's probably singing In My Bed. or Move On. or Friends. or Sad Tango ..
i hate myself so so much.
hah. i don't have to wait for the night coz i'm already crying.

Let me be the one to hold you tight
Be the one you wait for every night
Kut saram jae reehle
It jue nae gat tae shinhae jut gae, hae jo!

I will always be right by your side
Kut saram chauror
Loit tou na nuu ee ruu nop suu go yaan.

Move On- Bi Rain

Smack That Dude

Kuhan went for AKON'S CONCERT.
not that i was bothered or anything until he told me EMINEM WAS ALSO THERE.
i mean .. its EMINEM!
EMINEM!
chimaganbabi weeeeeii.
dunno whether its true or whatever la but .. will find out on my own.

i finally got Rain's 4th album! yay me!

so anyways, here's my grand master plan.
what am i going to do with

• no permission
• no transport
• no money

money.
borrow la what else =___________=

transport.
follow a friend who's also going or take the lrt/starputra

permission!
i tell my dad i'm going for a friend's party and will be back really really late. transport is provided. as i know, i'll be back around 1. my dad doesn't bother i guess so ... =D

lets just hope i have .. the real guts to do it.

Oh Yeah- Rain ft Ai

Hujan oh Hujan

so i skipped school for no reason today.

i'm not sick.
nor avoiding anything or anyone in school.
nor coz of any personal problems.

i'm.just.depressed.

that i might not be going for this. *sobs*

i guess i will only get over it once his concert is over.

I'm Coming Live- Bi Rain

AllabRain

just a few Rain pictures to brighten my blog ^^

Rain- widening his eyes to the max.

oh-so-cute.

Rain- in action.

Rain- in latest hairstyle.

Rain- looking like L. x3

Rain- rather ... nerdy?

its okay! me like

Rain- flying!

Rain- at world tour!

Rain- during his younger ages

Rain- kissing me. :D

Rain- is blushing!

off to dinner.

toodles!

I'm Coming- Rain

Almost Wasted

firstly, i want to apologize to the following people.

Mr.Ravi.Naveen.Samantha.mummy.WongLokeKen.SiuWern.Edna.Eleena.Edna's other sister.and Ranjali.

traumatic day. that maybe one day i will publicly confess.
thats why i want to give a big shout out to one of my bestest friend's in the world. Ranjali!

thank u so so much for always being there for me in need of help.

although u wouldn't rush out of the cinema when i called u, i'm glad enough u came to rescue. at the worst time of my life.

thank u for the hugs.

thank u for the lending ears.

thank u for your always-there-for-me-when-i-need-it shoulders to cry on.

thank u for the kisses.

thank u for the care.

thank u for the love.

i love Ranjali! =)

and lastly, all thanks to God, my Lord Jesus Christ. x3

if it wasn't for Him .. honestly and literally speaking, i would have been traumatised for life or might commit suicide.

I'm Coming- Rain

ummm

i wanna go for RAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAIN.

yup. thats it for today. toodles!

In My Bed- Rain

Raining

i'm suddenly feeling so emo.
there's so much things that are continously running through my head.
for example, Lauranne. just look at the first picture you see and you will understand.

and dreadful feel-like-giving-up, blisters-causing basketball.
and the article Hanif just sent me.
and Samantha's sudden terror.
and PMR. why la think so far? march exam haven't study aso.
and my sister's big mouth telling her big-mouth friends my crush's name.
ouh the tears inside.

why is it that people always get what they want and you don't?
and sometimes, we want what people have and they want what we have.
and then after a while, we decide that we made a wrong decision and go back to the old us.

i will never be happy or grateful for what i already am blessed with.
i will always be envious of what other people have and get.
i see what people have and i fall into my usual depression.

Sad Tango- Rain

stayed back in school to play basketball today.
i think after using up all my energy during my i'm-so-high-and-i-dunno-why mood this morning, i got so sleepy after recess. esp during moral. imagine keeping your eyes and brain awake while struggling on math questions too.

so, basketball.
Smelly, Piqah, Foofy, Shazmine and Linda were also as semangat as me. although the elections weren't today la, stupid Jeremy. there were a few school guys there and we made them help us out. it was really so funny la kay? i fell on my bum 3 times and once, i fell on one of the guy who was helping us out.

its not.my.fault.
he was showing off dribbling the ball and i wanted to halang him from throwing to his partner so i was jumping like a mad monkey and without realizing, my second jump i pushed myself a little to the front and ended ke-de-ba-boh!-ing on him.

i and Foofy played for ... 90 minutes. chiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiimaganbaaaaaaaabi. my bones are so weak right now, esp my left arm.

lalala~ basketball, netball and badminton elections are almost on the same day.
and i was thinking of going for all three. baaaaaaaaaabi.

tomorrow, the netball and badminton elections are taking place at the same time.
don't know which one to go for. but mostly to badminton la ..

the badminton and basketball competition will be held on the same day.
again, stoned by that stupid fact.

*cries* omg which one to go for?
JuYi needs to start to study. esp. Sejarah.

oh crap i almost forgot.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, SYAFIQAH DEAREST! x3

This Ain't A Scene- Fallout Boy

Come la play :D

this morning, i played basketball with Hazwan and BoonAun.
this afternoon, i played basketball with Dee.
just now, i played basketball with my brother and friends.

basketball.is.excruciatingly.painful.and.tiring.
not to mention i horribly suck at it.
darn i really don't want to make a fool out of myself this monday for the elections.

and men suck. not all la kay?
sometimes they're just huge jerks that are just so self-centered.
u give-people-bad-impressions-on-you person.

The Voice Within- Christina Arguilera

I Don't Even Play Bball!

i am uhhh .. the representative for the form3 girls for basketball?
man i don't even play basketball. in fact, i kinda suck at it, esp dribbling. stupid stupid dribbling.

stupid Lim Zheng Xiang for electing me. stupid crappy you.
but at least, dear Smelly, Fiqah and Shazmin was there to accompany me.
as i like to call it, bersatu teguh bercerai roboh. :D

even better, my sister was the girl representative for form1.
i actually laughed when her name was called.
but ya la, she can't even dribble. which is logically of course, worse than me.

so its going to be lots and lots and lots of shooting and dribbling practice until 28th February. damn it, so near exam samo. and i don't want and can't tarik diri because those who have jawatans automatically enter the school team.

chimaganbaaaaaaaaaaabi.

lalala~ i shall shut up now.

You And Me- Lifehouse

anyway, i'm a bit gila bout handbags and shoes at the moment.
esp the ones that i see in Seventeen and online ..

esp POLKADOTS!

Roxy's handmade plaid tote with oh-so-beautiful detail.

Guess?' match top point hobo!
Guess?' secret top zip. oooh la polkadots ~~

halter polkadot! :D

and most wanted ..

polka dot pumps!

When I See You Smile- Clay Aiken

I'M DANCING FOR EASTER!

ouh i told u that already?

owhh. too bad la. i'm DANCING FOR EASTER!

so i'm going to skip 2-3 tuition intensives.

but i really do look forward to dancing for Easter. =)

i am now an official; drama queen! LoL

stupid Ian .. if he came in earlier for the english meeting, i would've elected him as president of the club.

coz his English is like .. perfect punya perfect. no?

and i FINALLY saw OMAR once again!

its so funny to see him drive coz .. i still see him as a form5 student. x) it has been years since i last saw him. and of course, obviously missed him chimaganbabi. must go out. must go out.

True Colors- Cyndi Lauper

Shoved In The Face

i hate Atina!

and Yee Lyn! and Alyssa! and YVONNE!

i hate people who have money to afford concert tickets. *sticks tongue out*

let me just do a little list of the upcoming concerts that will be held in Malaysia that i desperately want to go to;

just want to go.

quite a fan.

am a big fan.

am a desperado.

the konvict, Akon live in Zouk KL

the ultra ever-so-chimaganbabi hot Rain live at Bukit Jalil!

the silently crazy band, Muse live at Bukit Jalil!

the ever fully talented piano, violin, guitar, drummer and singer Lee Hom live in Stadium Merdeka!

i waaaaaanaaaaa goooooooooooooooo for Muse and Rain !!!!!!

and how blardee chimaganbabi, they have the most expensive tickets.

especially Rain's. tickets reaching up to RM700+.

i am most most most desperate for Muse!

and i hate Atina coz she bought the RM233 the most expensive ticket and she shoved it in my face in school just now.

i dunno since when la but ya i am a big fan of Muse. biiiiiiiig fan.

Starlight- Muse

i'm participating for Easter!

i really really want to be part of the dance industry but .. obviously won't leave acting behind la. those who wanted to audition for dance had to audtion for drama also coz they didn't have enough participants. so .. i wouldn't purposely suck during the drama audition la, so i'm really afraid they would put me in drama.

PLEASE LET ME DANCE!

and what da crap OLLIE was one of the judges.

its Ollie.

no seriously, you don't know Ollie.

its Ollie!

actually he's not bad lahh.

he just couldn't wait to see me dance.

coz he never saw me dance.

bloody chimaganbabi he embarassed me in front of the judges. XD

but anyhows, i so so so want to be in dance.

and FINALLY i was rajin enough to upload the pix on blog.

although it was really late, i still got my christmas present from dear Hazwan! :D

ladies and gentlemen; i present to you .. Snow!

he's the height of .. your hand.

he's holding a teeny-weeny-smiling gingerbreadman!

and just ultra superdupercalifragilisticespyaladociously adorable!

thank you so so much. =) x3

so after tuition yesterday, i fetched Divya home so we .... camwhored.

it was in the car, and we don't like flash so u can expect alot of pictures like this;

parts where u can see my face.parts where u can't see my face. and my white shirt. on the right

'omg u look so dead hippie.'

El Nin-Yo!- Tata Young

thats it.
my msn messenger hates me.
i haven't been online for two days. which is quite enough torture for me.

so in the mean time, i shall addict myself to myspace in the mean time.

You Have a Choleric Temperament

You are a person of great enthusiasm - easily excited by many things. Unsatisfied by the ordinary, you are reaching for an epic, extraordinary life. You want the best. The best life. The best love. The best reputation. You posses a sharp and keen intellect. Your mind is your primary weapon. Strong willed, nothing can keep you down. Your energy can break down any wall. You're an instantly passionate person - and this passion gives you an intoxicating power over others. At your worst, you are a narcissist. Full of yourself and even proud of your faults. Stubborn and opinionated, you know what you think is right. End of discussion. A bit of a misanthrope, you often see others as weak, ignorant, and inferior.

What Temperment Are You?

yupp; very me.

Don't Let The Sun Go Down On Me- Clay Aiken

here i am .. on SiuWern's com chair pinball-ing, solitaire-ing, myspacing, reading blogs and blogging on my own! ahahahahha ..

yes yes yes this is people's house and i should behave and bla x4
ouh well, too bad.

actually, i'm kinda getting used and actually liking the class i'm in.
the one that i've been complaining about since i found out.
and its so so so so hard to believe that .. i actually like Pn. Suriati.
maybe its not so bad after all, u know.
who knows what God has in store for me in that packed, crammed little noisy class.
ouh well, i will look forward to it.

since we both saw it together and SiuWern saved it in her com, i present to you .. Cuppacakes!

its so yummy looking i know!

i shall droooooool until my eyeballs fall out.

SiuWern is going to cook me maggi mee by microwave. yuck. but i'll eat it.

[SiuWern] i don't cook for people u know! and i haven't cooked it!

pinball noises- SiuWern's com

Pants

i don't want to talk bout school.
i shall distract myself. lalala~~

so i came across this part of Le Pants blog where there were quite a ton of blogthings for me to try that i haven't tried.

they result to exactly what i guess.

Your Body Image is 72% Unhealthy, 28% Healthy

Your negative body image is borderline serious. It could turn into an eating disorder or psychological problem. Perhaps you're just having a bad day. But maybe you need to think about getting help for your problem.

How's Your Body Image?

now doesn't that just sound absolutely me?

You Are a Red Flower

A red flower tends to represent power, seduction, and desire. At times, you are loving like a red tulip. And at other times, you're very enthusiastic, like a bouvardia. And more than you wish, your passion is a bit overwhelming, like a red rose.

What Color Flower Are You?

You Are 39% Indie

You're a pretty normal person, with a few unusual streaks. No one would ever call you a freak, but you've been called weird - once or twice.

How Indie Are You?

You Are 80% Obsessive

You tend to have obsessive thoughts, and sometimes these cross over into your daily life. While everyone does have a few weird rituals, you have to work to keep yours from taking over your life.

How Obsessive Are You?

my show started. bye.

Don't Move On- Lindsay Lohan

First Day

its almost 7 a.m. ohmagooooowsh.
i'm wearing my old baju kurung.
i forcefully chopped killed my nails
my hair's not up yet.

eesh i just felt like blogging la kay?
school's starting ........ yay.
no really i am quite happy actually that i get to meet my friends again.
the shitty part is that we might be separated.
coz teachers are envious hate seeing us together.

they can never ever ever stop the SU from being together!
never! *raises hand up in the air thingy*

ouh well, there's so much to look forward to this year.
a whole lot of PMR torture.
and .. yahh a whole lot of PMR torture.

First- Lindsay Lohan

Lyrical

stepping into the new year didn't make much difference.

i'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
although going on like that still upsets me
what hurts the most
is being so close
i'm having so much to say
but watching you walk away ..

you held my hand when i cried.
you picked me up when i fell.
you motivated me when i was confused.
you guided me to the right path.
you thought me from right and wrong.
you helped me into knowing my God better.
you were that gift from heaven that i thought was going to be with me for eternal.

sadly, i was wrong.

then she stepped into the picture.
and she became the everything of your life.
i respected her for i know the love you have for her.
time goes, as i grow .. during the hardest times of my life ..
people talked and you didn't like it.
you not liking it caused unease in me.
and because of that, i forcefully run from you.

i can't cry to you.
i can't call you when i'm broken.
i can't call you when i need motivation.
i can't talk to you when shadows surround me.

but i didn't care and i tried.
blood wreckage and i cried ..
i cried and cried and cried ..
i was crying so loud.
you must have heard me.
you always hear me crying.
you know when i cry.

the conversation didn't last.
you spoke a few simple words and told me to go to sleep
maybe you were tired from life's stress
and as your girl, i was understanding
you wanted to let go so i made it up to you
so my night was filled with loneliness, horror, tremble and fear

a new year came
you told me you appreciated me for how supportive i have always been
what was i to reply?
what did i have to say?

so i lied.
i can't tell you the truth anymore
not just me, it would hurt you too
i can't blame you either, because thats how we humans are.
when will it be your turn to come crying to me?
should my life be as a sacrifice?
should it be worthful?
should you even care?

i'm a piece of unformed clay
soft and needs further molding
should i just grow to be a piece of mud left fragile alone?
should i find someone else?
should i?
a person of two faces; i smile .. i cry.
you saw my mask
you don't see me anymore ..

did you ever love me?
i ask
did you ever love me?

once again tonight
i cry alone.

The San Tahun

Cheam was *coughcough* shaking his booty.

as u guessed it lahh.

whenever its my brother's and his gang throwing a party, there will always be glitter, water and ice/food. which was not a good thing for me coz my top was very thin and .. yahh.

it was almost midnight when we all walked to the Thiam Hua, my dad's bestfriend's restaurant. he bought those huuuuuge! fireworks like those u see on teevee so we rushed as fast as we can la. we walked through rows of houses and suddenly Cheam started screaming happy new year! and everyone of them followed along like jakuns screaming happy new year! and i felt like being a jakun so i followed along.

so it was ..

25++ people being jakuns together.

and it was so fun!

coz so many got out of their houses and shouted back.

some were even outside their house celebrating on their own.

aiyohh. such mad people we are.

thank God we arrived in time coz the moment was spectacular.

it have never seen anything so beautiful in my life before. and the sparks were like so near. coz we were all standing right under them.

then ChinChuen cycled me home. hahahaaaaaaaa~

he pengsan-ed half way la so i had to walk anyway.

before u know it, its already 1.30 in the morning.

messy, wet, dirty, sweaty, tired, itchy bla x4

Kenny, Cheam and Dwayne slept over and they slept in the living room.

but we all went to bed at 5 la coz well .. we were watching movies and i was pinball-ing away on the com.

i DID HAVE A PICTURE OF THEM!

until Kenny deleted it. baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaabi.

My Goodies- Ciara ft. Petey Pablo

Shh Its Chasing Cars!

wait wait wait ..
everyone's saying the same thing so mine goes a bit different;

Selamat 'San' Year!

see how muhibah that sounds?

so anyways, i got really prepared to go to church.
coz .. well, its new years eve duhh.
and i wore a skirt. which is so unbelievable because i usually wear jeans and heels.

but yeah la i felt like showing off my long legs that day. :D:D
got my hair done ..
made sure i was in good shape.
made sure my skin didn't look as dry. ha ha haaa ..
and all that other time-occupying stuff.

arrived at church and i saw the Jo's!
JOsephine and i screamed when we saw each other.
and JOel was like .. 'uhhh.'

Youth area was full. so we sat somewhere else.
and LingLing came along after that.
and how coincidental; all the girls were in white!

darn, i was lazy to bring my camera.
after all the effort put into looking good. eesh.

then i went home and lazed myself and fell asleep for 3 hours.
i wouldn't want to get tired at my brother's party later on maa.
at 1st it was just his gang, then suddenly the Azam and some of the Cekal wanted to tag along. so it was a 30+ people party.

think about the foooood.
think about .. the after-mess.
think about .. the noise.
think about the music!

uhuh uhuh .. the radio was blasted to the maximum and like .. maybe deafening the nearby neighbours.
so this is what they go through everytime my brother has a party at the multipurpose hall.

but who cares lahh. we're celebrating and its your fault for living nearby.

i was with YE the whole time and we found so much in common. and it was quite akward to me at first because well .. i'm extremely noisy, i'm extremely nosy, i'm mean, i'm sarcastic and she is all of the opposite.

we love Robert Pattinson.
we love music.
we love Chasing Cars!
we hate lala.
we think Gerard Way lead of MCR is good looking.
we are emo people.

i was stuck to her and she was stuck to me la coz well our own gang couldn't make it to the party and hanging out with her was a whole lot of fun.

talking bout music ..

Hips Don't Lie was the number one song of the year on the international list of hits. we were shocked that Sexyback was only like number 10 and we expected it to be number one. but anyways, Buttons was number 8 and Don't Cha was number 4! uhuh uhuh cmon shake that booty with me .. ;) i forgot all bout Don't Cha and totally gave up when Buttons was playing as the 8th song on the list and when Don't Cha came out, i literally went aaaahh! and started asking people to shut up.

All I Want Is You- Planet Shakers