because i know.

that i still don't know........
if what i did,
had a huge impact that would last forever and can never be mended.


that i still don't know.....
if i didn't do it,
everything else would've been better.
nothing would've occured.
nothing would've happened.


my purpose wasn't for things to be this way.
it never crossed my mind; at all.


i guess i forgot how people might think of it.
bout how they don't think they way i do sometimes.


am i the one who is shallow?
or is it them?

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Yvonne Lee sucks.
xP

that i still don't know

whether i'm the one you're thinking of anymore

Scandalous- Mis Teeq

because they're malaysian gadis-gadis mimpi.

i skipped school to write this post.
you guys better choose me as winner ah. *holds up parang*

well, i've been a bit over addicted to the Malaysian Dreamgirl series. the online search for the next Malaysian top model bla bla... 12 finalists.

literally, waiting for capxionmedia to upload ep 6 on YouTube because i hate watching it on the site. *push play sini*. series wise, they baru oni masuk 3rd ep so baru 3 people only eliminated.


honestly speaking laa...

i DID think about auditioning...
because well, i'm such a giant.

sadly,

confidence level is beyond zero.
and i'm not super skinny/slim. saya berisi laa.


and i don't want this fattie to ejek me for my oily nose and uneven hair.

the hot Kenny Sia, the only straight male judge on the show

see. he's so much prettier than me.

well fellow male readers.

feast your eyes on some pretty hot women in tight lingerie, little clothing and sweat. as disgusting as that combo sounds, its true.

taking photos from their not-so-previous photoshoot,

i'ma start with my favourite to least favourite.

Fiqa

170 cm

32-35-35

the Malay-Chinese girl next door

i really like her and i have no idea why. maybe its her rocking hair and the fact that she looks a lil bit like Serena C. she's got a really simple personality and she's not pendiam like some of the others. i agree with Sazzy Falak saying that her eyes can't be seen in the photo but BECAUSE her eyes can't be seen in the photo, doesn't it look a bit mysterious? and her body's rocking yaww. i find her cool. and i like cool :D heh.

Jay175 cm

33-24-36

the girl with wits and wisdom

she's also pretty cool to me. as beautiful as she is in real life, her pictures are so tak tetap; the first photo her head looked like it was about to explode. however, this photoshoot she was spanking. check out that toned long arm. and that super long leg. fuih.

Jean ( eliminated )

172 cm

34-28-35

the girl who dropped out

i don't know why she did, but i heard it was because of some family matters and how her parents don't approve of her taking part in the competition. if she didn't drop out, i bet on my Nose 3-inch Mary Jane pumps she would've gone far. she's studying pharmacy maan~ now thats one beauty with brains. face pulak, like Myolie Wu. i think i'm the same height as her and gila ah I WANT HER BODYYYY

Nadia

162 cm
31-25-35

the girl with classic Malay beauty

this one is like... beautiful and i mean beautiful man. she's got really exquisite features but i think her body something wrong lah. her upper body is really tiny and that makes her normal looking hips look unnormally ginormous. like a bony pear except that pear no bones. photos are very nice. period.

Alison ( eliminated )

170 cm

32-24-32

the girl who was mature

she cooks, she takes care of the girls, she knows whats going on....

sadly, sudah eliminated. kesiaan~

she's actually very pretty in real life, maybe it doesn't come across in the photos.

Valerie163 cm

31-24-33

the Sabahan girl with spunk

she sho cool maan; got SABAH SLANG SIAA~ sorry la jakun here never really heard Sabah slang before
FooFy and i were laughing like pigs when we saw this photo because of her over-the-top cleavage. i mean.. cmon laa it looks like its gonna boom out anytime. like BOOM! we actually thought it was fake but its the wonderbra lah. she look so flatly normal wearing normal clothes.

Ringo

162 cm

32-24-33

the girl who was brought back in

she looks like the R-rated version of Jigglypuff the Pokemon haha

which guy won't love a girl with a cute face and a hot bod en?

and because i read her blog once in a while, she's pretty dang hillarious.

Ringo's blog

Cindy167 cm

32-25-33

the girl with pure confidence

she talks pretty much, a lot ( thank God ) but i don't know why some of the other contestants find her arrogant and somewhat cocky. to me, she okay laa. nothing to brag about but at least she got personality, not dead mannequins like some of the others.

Natasha ( eliminated )

167 cm

30-25-34

her body's hot in this photo but i dunno why to me she look like guy lah.
you know.. like got very thick moustache and all.
maybe she IS a guy :O

Hanis

170 cm

30-24-31

the girl with sweet humility

hi thanks for voting i tau mcm... gile poyo an telefon voting EGH geli pulak

she's reeeeally sweet; like disayangi oleh the other girls wan you know. but a bit too silent lah. wish she'd speak up more in the upcoming episodes.

Adeline 173 cm

32-26.5-37.5

can someone give me a JIN to the J-A-N-G?

aiyohh she can't speak English for nuts.

sorry laa but verbally, it makes a big first impression and she just... cannot speak English.

and since its a reality tv online show, what you say has to convey to the viewers; the thing is sometimes i don't even get what she is saying.

i think Jay is the cool!

she's totally look like guy! very goooood~

she can be a very... girry(?) and she can very like.. a guy.

something tells me she'll be staying for long though.

Eyna 169 cm

33-27-36

sorry lahh this one cannot.

in real life, okok laa but in photos she look like those chee cheong kai roadside hookers

more like a transvestite, actually.

and she looks too uptight and stiff like Posh Becks. eek!

as much as i would love to have her body, i don't love her.

i somehow already see the final three of the competition.

and just like ANTM, first season where got so high tech and high class riiight...

no high-tech cam, no super-blardee-cun banglo... sound quality like taik kambing...

okay bye.

Wine Red- The Hush Sound

because i like it like that.

Current State of The Union Dewan Rakyat

IN

Clique novels

the SU

28th March

Ian's girlfriend

OUT

addmath

faker

increasing pimples

petty love

Still In Consideration;

baba blacksheep.

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yesterday night, i dreamt Nick Jonas was my familyfriend/bestfriend and Kevin Jonas was my fanatic stalker.

it was funny.

i think it was 6.30 in the morning and it was a school day, so i came downstairs all prepped with my hair tied and baju kurung, ready to head for school and Nick Jonas was sitting next to my brother who was awake in the early morning as well(?) and a birthday cake on the table. grandma wasn't there though.

Nick: happy birthday :D

*all in laughter for God knows what reason*

Nick: oh hey, my brother sent you a card.

Moi: all the way from the US?

Nick: yeah.

and Nick handed me this envelope. i opened it; a pretty birthday card. with some message scribbled inside lahh. then at the bottom it was signed Kevin.

then tetibe, Kevin calls.

Kevin: heey happy birthdaaaay. how are you?

Muua: why are you calling? *hangs up*

and in my dream, i freaking wasn't all over him HAHAHA feeeeeeeeeee

wait; i don't even like Kevin Jonas in real life =s

Nick Jonas is fine so ..... heh. *big cheesy grin*

funny la.

birthday also six months away still.

he's my first mistake

White Houses- Vanessa Carlton

because he was the love of my life.

i've dreamt of you three times in a row, its taking over my conscience.

i can't focus.

i can't study.

i can't stop thinking bout you.

i'm tired of getting the same message.

i know you love me. i know you do.

you heard me telling you how much i love you as well.

how much i dreadfully miss you.

just tell me how you are doing, please.

tell me that you're okay, wherever you are.

then i'll be content.

then i'll be happy.

then i'll be fine.

i've studied all i can for Bio and Addmath tomorrow.
all i hope for is a constant A for Bio and to get higher than 20 for Addmath.


Tuhan sayang saye, kan kan? :D

I tag all my links. ALL KENA BUAT AH

1. What is your favourite food?
carbonara spaghetti. I honestly think its one of those foods I can eat everyday for the rest of my life and not get bored of it.

2. Have you given your first kiss away?
Yes.
only gave one away anyway

3. If you were to be stranded on a desert island, who are the 3 blog buddies you would take with you? Why?
SiuWern; to keep my life organized
MeiYing; so it won’t be boring
Melissa; to cook my food LOL


4. Where is the place that you want to go the most?
England.
I just wanna go away for a while.
don’t we, Edna? :)

5. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
for daddy to still be alive and live until I see every single strand of his hair drop from his already-almost-bald kepala.

6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
it happens laa; believe what? lol

7. What are you afraid to lose the most now?
my mother. she’s the one who keeps my life going. I’ll die without her.

8. If you win RM1 million, what would you do?
can’t turn back time no, can it?

9. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
sudah confess. no difference ahaaa

10. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
she didn’t tag me so ummm…… xD
Melody; she’s AHMAZINGLY nice, like too nice okay.
she’s AHMAZINGLY smart..
and she’s overall, someone I could only dream to be like =)

11. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
logistic, real, down-to-earth, knows how to make my day/put a smile on my face and not hate me for my greasy hair, tardy habbits and thunder thighs.

12. Which type of person do you hate the most?
people who always think they’re right.
I know too many people who are like that; yet I love them. I am so nice lol

13. What is your ambition?
a professional in performing arts.

14. If you have fault, would you rather the people around you point out to you or would you rather they keep quiet?
point it out to me, yes. just tell me once or twice in a normal manner; don’t come yabbing at me repetitively as if I don’t know already. its sickeningly annoying.

15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
my relationship with God.

16. Are you a shopaholic or not?
if I rich, sure shopaholic laa.
now, not much already.
sudah buang that habit away

17. Find a word to describe the person who tagged you.
beautiful ;)

18. If you have a chance. Which part of your character you would like to change?
tardy-ness.
its already so deep in me, that if affects every single decision I make in life, be it a big or small one. I am already trying to change that part of me and life feel’s better now.


19. What makes you different?
when I am quiet, it is when my brain is talking the most.


20. When is you birthday? (This is a hint!)
20th Sept.
buy me presents please. I need big cheering up this year lol

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i've ate junkfood two days in a row for lunch.
eee how unhealthy.


and Easter has been good.
God has been good.
very blessing. <3

because He lives;

i can face tomorrow

Pretty Young Thing- Michael Jackson

because i appreciate what i have.

MeiYing gave me a present today.
like, no purpose kaay.


not my birthday.
not my mother's birthday.
not my day also. *scratch head*


she gave me a special, one in a kajillion, Mei-drawn notebook. :D
its empty inside, except for the one special page in front where she scribbled a nice long message for me. made my heart melt like ice-cream under the sun man. heh. very very nice. and the backcover is plain black, so she graffitied the whole cover with liquid paper.


sounds cheapskate like chee cheong kai fun right?
but eh the design DAMN NICE OKAY. DON'T PREYH PREYH.
i'll be uploading a picture of it very soon.
sengaja wanna promo the book riiight ;D damn many ppl wanna buy okay.


OMG JUYI WHERE YOU BUUUUUUUUY?
mewithmukabangga: Mei draw for me :D

yeah just to remind you all again;

Mei GAVE it to me you knooooooow~

you losers have to go and buy/order yourselves. MUAHAHA

okay like wdf i'm still gonna buy another one because its sho cool

i love the book so so much. <3
i can't wait to scribble in whatever that tickles my fancy. :D
omg so the very cantik la the drawiiiiiiing!

i love you like kacang loves its kulit :) <3

and baba blacksheep or white(?) roflroflrofl

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No Air by Jordin Sparks and Chris Brown

IS OFF THE SHIZZZZZZZZZAAAAAAY

i'm so addicted to this video, i have to watch it everyday.

the chemistry between the both of them was awesome; mainly because Jordin looked really beautiful and not fat, you 350 pound retards... and the fact that Chris Brown didn't dance for ONCE compared to all his videos and lookeded jabbawockeengly hot.

mind you i wasn't really a big fan of him.

just knew he was cute and he could dance and sing very well.

but this video........

WAHSEHHH~

i wanna marry him now.

...... after Rain first la of course so yeah :D

maybe i stil love you

and maybe you still do too

One Voice- Billy Gillman

because i'm worn out.

i cannot not eat meat at night.
i'll end up eating rice.
rice = fat.
so yeah; vegan throughout morning and afternoon XD

aku menoleh hari-hari kelmarin yang aku lewati kesuraman;

kamulah yang banyak meredakan kesesakan hidupku

No Air- Jordin Sparks ft Chris Brown

i'm losing myself under these pile of books and stress.
i'm no longer happy; i'm no longer talkative.
i'm no longer the JuYi i once knew.


crying everyday is not excusable.

but WHYYY?

Rain's new hairstyle is fcking of the chaaain <3

i so prefer him more with long hair that is tied up. ;D

this 6ft2 man has the ability to drive me nuts.
sexy macam .... FUIH.

yeah i love me some Rain ass babehh

and thank you Yvonne for sending me your abstrak on Alam Sekitar :D

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i think i'm turning into a hippie.

alaa you know...

long, frizzy hair with a small ribbon tied across the forehead...
colourful or usually green and yellow clothing...
all about SAVING THE ENVIRONMENT...
all about WORLD PEACE..
vegan =s
just... green, green, green.



like, i was eating nasi lemak a few days ago....
and all of a sudden, i freaked out after looking at the ikan bilis because it has a head and i immediately threw whatever was left away.

when all my life,

i don't even eat ikan bilis.

and all of a sudden lately..

whenever i eat meat, i start thinking about the animal before it's been slaughtered.

you know... alive, with the head and all, running around freely..

CRAP LAA.

No Air- Jordin Sparks ft Chris Brown

because the world's still small.

i climbed up the mountain, and looked of the edge
and all of the lies i never have led
is one where i stay with you across the sea
i wonder do you still think of me?


i carry your image always in my head
folded and yellowed and torn at the edge
and i've looked upon it for so many years
slowly i'm losing your face


oh, the ocean rows us away, away, away...
the ocean rows us away..


all of these moments are lost in time
but you're caught in my head like a thorn on a vine
to forever torment me and i wonder why
do i wish i'd never knew you at all?


oh, the ocean rows us away, away, away...
the ocean rows us away..


the sun and the moon
of ocean of air
so many voices and nothing is there
but the ghost of you asking me why
why did i leave....


oh, the ocean rows us away, away, away...
the ocean rows us away...
i lose your hand through the waves

why did i leave?

because i wanna be just like her.

whats that thing?

.... camera.

SO MUCH for 'come study Biology' la hor.

after all the members went home, it was left with me, SiuWern and Edna.

what did we do?

bootyshake.

dance.

jiggidy.

watch Step Up 2 videos.

watch JabbaWockeeZ videos.

watch Kaba Modern videos.

watch Pussycat Doll videos.

three hours down the drain; in a snap like that.

Edna and i went maaaad bootyshaking.

like, MAAAAAAAAAAAAD bootyshaking and krumping.

looked like we were on drugs. goodLord.

i want Briana Evigans' abs.

one day la, JuYi. one daaaay~

and SiuWern ada abs yaww;

don't prey prey.

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SPM result day really triggered my dull mind.
i'm still left hallucinating, wondering and often, daydreaming about.....
about everything.




how can they be so discipline?
how can they be so strict with their own mentality?
how do they pay so much effort into it?
how do they control themselves?
how do they resist temptation?
how? how?




how can Mah study 10pm-2am everyday?
how can Edna wake up at 4 in the morning to study?
how do they do it?

Melody On She Yen.

won't it be cool; to achieve 10A1's?

won't that feel.... awesome?

maybe i should try starting from now.

study a minimum of three hours a day. homework not included.

just try, JuYi.

get yourself used to it.

just try.

what is two years when i still have 80 more years to live?

G-Slide Tour Bus- Lil Mama

because they all rock.

.Basketball Teams' and Fans Fieldtrip to KLCC.

it was a fun, fun day.

20+ bballers in the cinema together-gether.

tambah a few more SVians who were there as well, unplanned

watching Step Up 2 again was worth it =D, because i get a clearer view of the moves, the music and realized that The JabbaWockeeZ was actually in the movie, playing the role as a competing crew in The Streets. how cool is that? see Yvonne. you mesti tengok ;p

there's this part in the movie where Andie sorta, bum shuffles...

HAHAHA MACAM JUYI BUAT DALAM BASKETBALL!

-Hajar-

coz it so happenly, looks like MY bum shuffle i do in bball to bum away my opponents rofl

after the last dance scene,

i think the girl sitting in front of me which so happens to be my formmate but not part of the bball team outing started clapping..... and i dunno WHY i decided to follow her and soon, the whole cinema was clapping and cheering. hahaha siiick.

and i bumped into; SO MANY FRIENDS YOU HAVE NO IDEA

no not her, dufus. she's a bballer

and this one's a fan

and these two, are the gayest faggots on the team

i forgot to take pictures with all the friends i bumped into there :( boooo~

i miss you, Josephine Tiew!

and i told you Hanif's effing gay.apparently, its contagious as well

.3 Hour Lepak At Starbucks JJ.

yeah.

what in the WORLD could we have done there; for three hours?

well, just having Samuel, Jeremy, Hanif, Mei Ching and SiuWern sitting with me on a tiny table, playing Stack 'Em and drinking truckloads of Starbucks beverages managed to do it.

SiuWern: eh JuYi. crab got how many legs ah?

JuuYehh:ummm, 8 right?

SiuWern:oh? i thought got 6.

MeiChing:ah? i thought got 2.

we laughed SO MUCH..........

• this two dudes who were sitting a table next to us got so annoyed, he gave me the God-would-you-guys-shut-up look and carried their laptops with them to sit outside.
• i was literally, banging the table, crying
• ohmygosh i think i came home with tight abs. forreal.

and look.

its Hanif again.

omygosh this pict is like... so nice man my face look so yeng!

.Gay Ian's 18th Birthday at Pizza Hut.

yeah thats my overly cheesed pizza :D

and congratulations on the 4A's, girlfrieeend ;)

my favourite black sohai

and my favourite photo of the day, don't know why

maybe its because of the YingYang-ness? xD

thanks for always being there for me. xx

and i'm sure its your best bday ever :)

love you, my decade-ful friend!

.Later On At Ian's House.

a photo of Inez through her Fisheyeyeeee :D

sorry la tak banyak gambar.
we were too busy enjoying ourselves. teehee.

.SPM Result Day.

somehow, i was even more excited than the candidates. i was jumping around, screaming, squealing.... i even dreamt of SPM results the night before. i even teared a few times as i watched some of my friends went on stage to collect their results.

and these are like, one of the days when you get to see men crying.

congratulations to all my fellow seniors who got amazing results.


ChanWyeYee; i think i cried when you went on stage. ahahaha pathetic
MahWaiQuin; 9A. gila babi.
LeeTimSoon; another gila; 7A's.
IanTanKeiChee!; 4A's weyh 4AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA's!
Sherrie; 8 bloody A's.
ZenZen; 10A's ONLY. *whams you*

and of course, to SMK Seksyen 5 Wangsa Maju's top SPM student 2007;

Melody On She Yen

=)

totally deserved it, dear.

you totally did.

sorry if name not mentioned. its 1am. i'm sleepy. uh.

its not that i'm taking his side

its that i don't want to make an assumption, by only listening to your side of the story

get your facts straight please, lil missy

Too Young To Fight It- Young Love

because i malas.

its like, 1 am now.
today has been a hectic day.

• my bro's back from NS
• SVian's bball teams fieldtrip to KLCC together-gether
• i saw Charles
• i saw Josephiiiiiiiine <3
• i saw tears well up in my best friend's eyes
• lepak at Starbucks JJ for three hours straight
• with Hanif, SiuWern, Samuel, Mei Ching and Jeremy
• laugh until got abs, really

gambar also not yet upload.
hahaha malaaaaaaaas~

good luck to fellow SPM-ers later on today :)

lotsa lova lova and prayers from me. xx

you seriously suck

why do i still love you?

Lies- The Pierces

because its real, so believe it.

I AM SO NOT RIPPING THIS POST FROM YOU, YVONNE.

i've heard of America's Best Dance Crew for quite a while really. basically, its a new reality tv dance competition produced by AI's very own Randy Jackson and has a table of judges consisting of wonderman choreographer of You Got Served and SoYouThinkYouCanDance's ex-choreographer/judge, Shane Sparks, rap star Lil Mama, and NSync member if i'm not mistaken, JC Chasez so yeah it was SICK BORING at that time when i heard of it because they were still in pre-audition process xD and i forgot all about it until i saw a vid of the JabboWockeeZ on Yvonne's blog.

so far, my most fav vid of JabbaWockeeZ as well xD

however, i really like Kaba Modern though.

and check that out; Snow Urbin is even in the audience :D

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guess what i did today?

i STUDIED HAHAHAHAHA can you freaking believe it

and of ALL places,

in Nicolas Vergara's house. HAHHA lagi unbelievable

basically, i find it hard to study in the comforts of my own home.

and i have no idea why.

my excuse? = too many distractions.

i have less than half to study for Sejarah now :D heee

Dance With Me- Blake Mcgrath

because he's my hero.

Ryan sent me a message on Youtube. :D


hi miaowmiaow, thanks for all the support and everything . but jamile and i would like to request the video you put up of us in malaysia be taken down . not anything personal, but we simply feel like 30 shows in 2 weeks certainly took its toll, and the shows we did out there were definitely not up to par . since our careers depend on reference, we wouldn't want prospective jobs to be lost due to a clip of us NOT at our best, which is exactly what sungei wang work was for us . horribly tiring ! thanks for understanding ! and hope you continue your support for QUEST !

. ryan


whaaat.
its still a hand-written typed message by the man himself okay! xD

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【FooFy ™ † 】 ヅ says:
lol
【FooFy ™ † 】 ヅ says:
nvm laaa
【FooFy ™ † 】 ヅ says:
next time
【FooFy ™ † 】 ヅ says:
look at him
【FooFy ™ † 】 ヅ says:
shoot electric to him
【FooFy ™ † 】 ヅ says:
XD
【FooFy ™ † 】 ヅ says:
wakakakakax

hahahaa.
apparently, i do not have killer eyes to make that work.


i don't know why, i just didn't bother to look your direction.
although i could so obviously see you were looking at me.
i just didn't want to look at you.


maybe i'm just.... tired of whats going on.
tired of how you come so close, and then walk out on me.
tired of how its not the first time happening.
tired of how it cuts me on the inside.


you know, i get it, okay?
i get it.


i was once, the person who did the same thing to you.
i walked out on you, okay?
i'm already continuously tasting my own bitter medicine; stop choking me with it.


i can't be the nice person forever.


so just please....... tell me.
whether you meant your yes. at all.

the hardest decision in life

is knowing when to give up

and when to continue holding on

and i don't know why.

i just don't want to let go.

maybe i'm never letting go.

My Hero- Paramore

because its what makes life.

Badawi and Sami Velu were on a helicopter, and they were on the way to... somewhere lah. basically, they were on a helicopter and Badawi says;

if i throw two RM100 notes out of the helicopter, i will make two Malaysians will happy.

and then Sami Velu replies;

if i throw 200 RM1 notes out of the helicopter, i will make two hundred Malaysians happy.

the man flying the helicopter who was overhearing the whole conversation, murmured to himself;

if i throw both of you out of the helicopter, i will make 27 million Malaysians happy.

holidays are FINALLY here.
thank God for time to catch up on studies *cough* shitload of addmath *cough* biology *cough* physics *cough*, catch up with friends, finish up on homework, hang out, sleepovers and waking up late.


only yesterday the one-week holiday started and i have already been doing alot.

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Yesterday.

after a very successful YE production in the morning at KFC, my mom and i left for town at 1. she had some appointment with a client at Bangsar Village so she gave me RM100 and let me stroll around the two connected shopping centres on my own.


BORING.
explored both Bangsar Village and Bangsar Village 2 in just an hour.
so dropped by at Delicious for an oreo smoothie and some cupcakes.


i basically just sat there, on a two-seater table at the corner of the restaurant, slurping my yumyum smoothie until its very last drop, and then ordered my cupcakes then slowly makan like some grandma... and wasted around an hour in that well lit restaurant. spent the whole time looking at other customers, their food, the pretty white deco hanging from the walls and the not-so-hot-but-still-okay-lah waiters. i looked like a poor girl waiting on a date who decided to not come.


when my mom was done, she brought me to..........
Cats Whiskers!


can you believe we spent two hours in that little boutique?
and spent RM350 in total?


five bags, three tops, a dress, and shitload of accesories.
mcm tak pernah pergi shopping.


i shall upload a picture of my very nice bag i love so much that i can hug it to sleep and my beautiful Greek-like red dress sometime soon. :)

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Today.

was supposed to follow my mom up to genting for her company's annual dinner but i malas, so duduk rumah, slack and get fat. went out to JJ just now on my own to buy some fresh new underwear for a little stroll. bought well, some underwear, a white top and white shorts.


my wardrobe needs colour yaww.

coz all i see when i open it is black. pfft

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Tomorrow.

i am going to see MrNoel whom i miss like crazyyy!

:D

there goes my ordinary hero

watch him as he goes

My Hero- Paramore

because they make my world go round.

i love JeremyChew.
i love Samuel Thye.
and Noel who i miss so much


because they're my brothers.
who are at the same time, my sisters. lmao gay bastards


they make me laugh.
they make me smile.
they're there for me when i need a helping hand or an ear to listen.
they dry my eyes when i tear.
they care. awwww lol


honestly, i cannot care anymore what people have to say about them. how perasan Jeremy is, how lansi Samuel is, how really gay Noel is.... i don't care already. they are so much more than just petty good looks. they're real people, with so much more heart than most people i know.

thanks very muchie for talkteman-ing me just now til midnight.

needed the open ears.

and as much as you guys annoy me to bits sometimes....

i love you guys so much. <33

Apologize- Timbaland ( Indian Version )

because he didn't.

you came back home from work in your shiny, silver Mercedes.
home seemed normal; like we were used to you as a runaway.
and coming back only when you need to.


the scene changed instantly.
i was in the front seat of the car, sitting next to you.
just like how we did a few days ago before you went away.


how long will you be here?
please stay. don't go.

as typical as he always was, he changed the topic....

you wanna eat? what are you hungry for?
i teared heavily as i struggled to say....

you.

maybe i cannot accept the fact that he didn't run away.
the fact that he never did.
the fact that he's just gone.


i miss you, daddy.
life's not right without you.


Anyone Else But You- The Moldy Peaches

because its crap.

finally....
the basketball season is over.



okay not really over for the under18-men's team because they have another school to compete with and the under15-girls' team who got second in the keramat zone which is .... ONE FREAKING BIG ACHIEVEMENT, btw.

i'm aching.

i'm tired.

i'm drained.

29-0.

16-2.

36-12.

Mely, Div, FooFy and I are injured, quite badly.
all four of us basically, skii-ed across the beautifully unlevelled tar ground.



i skii-ed on my elbow.
FooFy skii-ed on her knee.
Mely and Div skii-ed on their palms and a bit of the knees.



only mine and FooFy's are all fleshy though HAHA
fleshy = flesh dapat dilihat



despite all the tears, bruises, broken hearts and anger.....
it was an experience to gain, not a loss.
we still had the most fun during our last competition, against the defending champs; Titiwangsa Princesses.

good luck to the remaining and still competing Section5 teams.
=)

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Yesterday.
after cheering on the male's team against Titiwangsa.



i followed SiuWern to her ballet class!
excuse my excitement; its my first time watching a ballet class


therefore, i'm gonna write a post about ballet.

.Ballet.

IS SICKENINGLY ...... UNBELIEVABLE.

yeah alot maybe wondering....
how can you not get bored watching a ballet class for a near five hours?

my answer is;

how CAN I?

so many moments in the cold class yesterday,
as i sat at the corner of the dance studio...
my mouth was left open and gangling in awe and amazement.
as i gazed at the every inch of a ballerina's footwork, posture and movement.


so precise.
so exact.
so stiff, yet so gentle, elegant and fluid.


i was so captured by the class,
i literally forgot to take videos/pictures with the camera i had in hand.


and since i was in the class for a near 5 hours....
i obviously had the chance to observe each ballerina, in whole.


their toned shoulders and arms.
their tiny waists.
their firm butts xD esp SiuWern's haha
their concentration on each move.


note; some of the dancers .... are not even thin.
BUT DAMN DO THEY HAVE TONED LEGS MAAAN!
THEY'RE TONER THAN MINE OMGAAAAAAAAWSHOES


malu giler i sit there watching;
feeling like the total Miss Mcfattie Universe.

WOW.

i tell you; WOW.

thats all i had to say at the end of the day.

my mind was left nothing to the imagination as i continuously try to figure how such girls have such stamina, determination, motivation, strength, energy, desire and power. honestly, ballet is the hardest dance genre EVER. hiphop and breakdance are for sissies i am telling you. SISSIES.


whoever says ballet is for sissy-fied girls.....
need to go to a wall.
bang their hollow heads on it.....
and if that thought is still there, they need to continue banging.


and i know, SiuWern is like, my friend riiight...
but honestly she was the best dancer in the studio, after the teacher's daughter.
she's got the nicest technique and most fluid movement,
i've seen; EVER.

she has no fear.

you all must learn from her.

-SiuWern's ballet teacher-

and she's basically got... the right body for ballet. i solemnly swear.
jealous siooot; JEALOUUUUUUUUUUUS


after watching them do ballet.....
malu laa wanna call myself a dancer. *runs and hides*

its so much more than just fragile girls in tiny tutus.

Happy Ending- Mika