because God's ways are often uncomprehensible.

after really reading up on his less-than-normal-childhood to world-fame-filled history, i finally learned about the person who's music i first remembered as i child. not studying his life like a psychologist, but mere facts are good enough for me to choose to believe him. i do. i believe he never was a child molester to begin with, i believe that he never intended to bleach his skin white for no purpose, i believe he loved his children like any father would and i believed that all he wanted was to relive a childhood he never had.

i never realized that throughout my sixteen years of living so far, i always happen to have a sudden addiction to one or two of his pieces of art. it's not hard to believe as people always pay tribute to him on the countless dance and music competitions i fanatically watch, even the current artists that follow his style. and somehow, the first one that comes to mind is always Rain.


to create works of art that would last generations, to produce signature styles that would be followed for years.. to come to think that many of the artists that i listen to today, actually were influenced by him, be it minimally or heavily. with all his videos playing on every tv channel, it slowly revealed to me, where the little details that my favourite artists today accentuate came from. i thank him because he literally made the music and dance industry that i give never ending respect to until this day.


never really had posters of him or screamed when PYT played in the car, but he did leave quite a mark in my childhood. and through the artists that influence me, he has influenced me as well.

I'm just like anyone. I cut and I bleed. And I embarrass easily.

a divine soul i pray tonight,

that you rest in peace, great man.

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you really never know what it's like being in people's shoes, do you? please, J. you're turning fifteen already. it's really time you grow up. 'whatever' shouldn't be your most frequently used word anymore in your dictionary. just one day, one day, mark my words you will get it back if you don't learn.


*lets out deep sigh*
God what else am i to do?
in the past few days, i have definitely realized that stating she's not of good morality doesn't put me as a person with that much great moral values either. somehow, i have forgotten that many a times, my actions do influence the things that she says, and sometimes, the way she reacts to things.

dear Lord,

grant me strength, patience, and ability to understand. tolerate.

hold my hand and help me hold hers.

i don't rush the day she will wake up from all these immature acts, but i do hope that as this period of selfish adolescence extends longer, her wake up call will be more harsh, more painful, and of course more worthy. and when that day comes dear God, i pray that i too will change my views and opinions towards her and stand by her side, helping her whenever i can. change me as You change her.


We Are The World- Michael Jackson

coz i got it down, dood.

1. Upload 3 ugly photo of you & explain it

because i look like fat boy

because i got double chin

because... i dunno lah

2. Real name?
Superstar Wong


3. Zodiac sign?
virgo


4. Hair colour?
rainbow. no, seriously.


5. A picture with your bestfriend

:D teehee

6. Loud or quiet?
i lie in the middle. percaye lah


7. Do you have a crush on someone?

how can you not? *faints*

8. Have you ever done something that you regretted?
regrets that turned into lessons :)


10. Meet someone that change your life?
half of the people i know, changed my life


11. Three words that you always said
-AUYAWWW
-you bitch
-AAAH!


12. Five things you've done for a very first time
-secret
-secret

-secret

-secret

-oh, i've smirked at a totally random stranger before


13. What happened at 11 a.m today?
sitting with Pavitira at the back of the hall, cheering because school finishes at 12 :D


14. How many pillows & blankets on your bed?
3 pillows, one blanky. auyawwww


15. Are you currently happy?
90%.


16. Name one of your guy friend
logan nathan


17. How many bestfriend(s) did you have?

about three thousand.


18. Who gives you the best advise?
mommah, pavitira, more people


19. Favourite colour?
pelangi.


20. When the last time you went to the mall?
half way there, can? if can, today xD


21. Are you a bitch?
i do believe i am once in a while. but one thing's for sure, i know i have a bitch :D


23. Why do you think boys are tougher than girls?
because i don't?

DOOD I SO ROCK THAN MOST MEN, esp Yvonne Lee

no wait, thts a girl who's tryna be a boy wah ah ah


24. Do you need someone right now?
nah


24. Did you sign up a Facebook?
NO hahaha am i proud to say that


25. Choose 2 words to describe yourself
hungry. procrastinative.


26. Did anyone called you a childish person?
sape kot... aahh, the Boonman.


27. Do you own a car?
i will. just not yet :)


28. Close friend that started with H?
heng kai hahahahahahahaha


29. Wish you were somewhere else?
in that little flat...


30. People that you want to tag
- ah mei

- ah sherlina

- singaporean white boy

OKAY

study time now :)

a day in the life of JuYi on a Saturday.

0. home.
snooze alarm twice. gosok gigi while listening to Wondergirls. find bra/singlet. find rubberband. find books. find socks. eat something.


1. school.
stand in class line. turn around for two seconds to check out leng chai. masuk kelas. hit someone. do my super awesome handshake with TeckJia. read Sejarah/do PEKA. eat everything during recess. hit someone. tell Pavitira to shut up. do my super awesome handshake with Logan. Idzwan belanja makan ice-cream. balik with Rampaians.


2. miscellaneous.
watch Singaporean White Boy.

mesti mesti mesti tengok.

get ready to go watch Transformerrrrrs REVENGE OF THE FALLEN WOOO. walk half way to lrt station, slipper putus. FFK. walk home. scuddled past laughing drivers and strangers. smirk at laughing truck driver. scuddle more. scuddle twenty seven thousand times. sampai rumah. eat something.

3. upcoming activity(s).

tukar baju. pergi rumah kawan. copy Bio PEKA. lepak. cycle. stare at clouds. watch Transformerrrrrs Revenge Of The Fallen WOOO with family. eat.

Crazier-Taylor Swift

i refuse to believe he's dead.

not yet not yet not yet. :]

thank you so much, Grace and Yvonne!

i've always always ALWAYS wanted dusty silver eyeliner but never really stooped upon a type that i really liked. tambah the black and blue eyeliners, i really really like :D i'm gonna trust you to buy me more make up in future, Grace!

because it's very much worth it ( Part Two ).

can't believe can't believe can't believe that i skipped school with prefects and with the help of a teacher!
yeah thats about all i'd leak out ;p

ST JOHNS' DEBATE TEAM STILL ROCKS, DOOD.

don't really care what the judges have to say anymore.

because well.. would you consider it entirely based on judging?

it was pretty much, the most heated debate i've witnessed in my life. Ritesh scares me more and more. the other present debators frm WMelawati and Ayer Panas today made it all fun :) too bad we couldn't join you guys for the after-debate hangout! lain kali yeh, Ain. ;D

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it's contradictory, how you and i know that i am a person who thinks way too far than the norm but still end up with the true conclusion that i still sometimes don't see things at the bigger scale, and end up creating some petty mess. sometimes my eyes get tired of focusing on the big picture and end up looking at the small things instead. maybe i just need to be reminded from time to time of why we are choosing to do this together, for your good and definitely for my own good as well.

i think i'm fine now.

i really do. :)


if i ever were to be not fine again, i hope you know that PMS gets to me more often than it gets any other girl you will ever know. tolerate me lah yeh? :D and i kinda rock for getting you teary and emotional, don't i? ;p well, gay or not, rich or not, annoying or not, one thing i'm very sure of, until today is...

yes i do :)

i love you, my ex-boyfriend/used-to-be frienemy/best friend/long time good friend/annoying friend/neighbourhood friend/gay friend/one-day-will-be-again boyfriend. :)

Knock You Down- Keri Hilson ft Ne-Yo & Kanye West

because it's very much worth it.

The second speaker, Wong Ju Yi.

Incredible. A word to describe you. An emotional sensitive person like you could just bang the opponent with just words. You're indeed awesome. Cue cards are just in shorthands and points form, but you expressed it in the most convincing way you could. Besides that, you're indeed the best Points of Information member I could find. I didn't expect we could POI people at the same time.

-my part time superhero :)

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my dear ZhengYi,

you may be one of the most annoying people on my lifelist, but you have as well, brought so much ease into my debate work and forced me deal with situations that i wanted to run away from. you made me face reality and reminded me to keep my head up strong and fulfill the duty as the leader of the team. the fact that in the past week, i broke, i tore apart, i cracked in every way possible and yet to be still called incredible and awesome, touches me waaaay deep. i hope you don't blame yourself at all with how the results of the debate went; because in my eyes, we are the real winners, even you. from the pits of my heart, i am very proud of you. :)


not to forget, Khadijah!


let me tell you... i cannot tell you how much more amazed i am at your level as a first timer without any experience. it puts me to shame because i've witnessed debate competitions for two years and only dared to participate in my third year. during our last debate, the minute you took your seat, i just went 'YES... thats my girl.' because you were that good. brilliantly poised, professional and smart. whether you stay in SV next year or not, i hope you continue participating in debates. because you have what it takes, khadijah. believe me, you do. ;)


Rachel Khoo.


the support and strength you provided the three of us from day one of practice inevitably showed how much commitment you have towards the team, eventhough you were just a reserved reserve. YOU have what it takes my friend. the wit, the brain and the skills. i know you won't disappoint. :)

and next year, i'm going to sit in the sideseats again, like how i always had, supporting all of you future SVian debaters, whoever you are. its time tol go all the way baby. no more social stereotyped winners. this time, they will realize who are the debaters with the real potential. it's going to be all of you.

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i cannot stop thinking of my final reply speech, as i channelled my inner Zen and tried to pull it off as effortlessly as i could, preparing the cue cards only during quarantine time instead of the day before. i kept recalling how i had once seen her debate two years ago; with such fluidity, sharpness and ease. judge's commentary feedback made me smile to my ears; ' you are very very good. and you're reply speech was PERFECT.'

thank you Zen,

for being my inspiration :)

i never saw myself as a good enough debater because when you compare me with the essential pros, i really am not. so to be chosen as best speaker was a good happy factor. also, the fact that we only lost to CBN by 1-2 points according to the judges, made it even clearer for me. technically they won, but we all knew who the real winners were kann? ;) it was the same case like yours lah, Ezen. but we weren't upset lah because we already saw it coming.

thank you to the teachers who have prayed for us and kept our spirits high :)

thank you Edna and Pavitira also, for listening to all my moans and groans!

last but not least,

the biggest thank you goes to Mr Cher.

for being so completely immersed and committed, sometimes to a point of driving us haywire. for providing such substance to our texts, without you we honestly would not have put up such a fight with the CBNners. basically, for being such an amazing support system to the whole team, it is an honour to have someone like you guide us throughout this unforgettable process. the times i got really angry and upset with your decisions, have now made me realize that if it were not for your decisions, we wouldn't be this content and satisfied with our final debate. you make us, the real winners. so thank you. thank you so. the very. much.

definitely a knowledge well gained,

and not worth missing. :)

New Divide- Linkin Park

'because her name is Liyana'- Edna.

11. Sebutkan 8 sahabat yang paling rapat dengan anda bkn dalam susunan
JY, SW, DN, G, I, I, A, H.
haa kita main teka teki.


aku tak kisah yg soalan itu kata tak payah sebut/taip dalam susunan tetapi mengikut kontent schematanya, dia telah menyebut/menaip namaku dulu walaupun bukan orang pertama yang wish dia selamat hari jadi.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, LIYANA MALIK

dah kenal selama 5 tahun, tetapi makin lama makin menjengkelkan kot. especially tahun ini. ingat hot sangat aa ngan Life'sGood sume. ntah aa. MAYBE memang dah hot skit kot. kalau tidak, mane boleh dpt kawan-kawan baik yg sehot ( atau sebenarnya, lebih hot ) seperti saya en en? ;)


i love you.
ooisei i made it sound so serious hahaha

because it doesn't get any easier.

happy father's day S2
Nights in the hospital alone are scary, daddy. Wished you were here with me instead.

Or rather, I was there with you, wherever you are.

i remember having a dream not too long ago that you were alive. you walked through the empty road and in all of our minds, your presence seemed like a divine intervention. you were with us for three days. and then you were gone. those three days felt like three years. you were happy, laughing and as William as you always are. you were so happy, and we were so happy.

i wish we could celebrate, like how we always did.

i wish for just one more day with you.

remember the paper necktie i made for you two years ago?

and how you wore it over your big yellow t-shirt everywhere? DUDE.

i still love you.
always have, always did, always will.


Anyone Else But You- The Moldy Peaches

because teachers are enlightening. some, not.

'you are a complete natural. you should definitely go into the stream of hosting and MC-ing events. you'll go far, no doubt'

its definitely great to earn such compliments from great teachers that i consider, have seen alot of people who can do better than i did today. even better, when the past week has been like hell hole and tears for me. still, i consider it an honour to be able to host an event ( with Tharmen ) for representatives from Commonwealth, eventhough the expected number of representatives turned out to be a single digit instead of 80.

a smile that only lasted a while; baju courtesy of Sherlina

we all knew the teachers were put under alot of pressure to present a good, if not, outstanding, wholesome image of our humble school. but it frustrated me to extensive heights when the stress they were under affected many students. or in my own words, victims. appalling, the many times i saw with my own eyes, students getting free banging for no real reason.


i'd like to believe that many, MANY students have put in alot of effort as well into making the library, SAL room, classrooms look better. ESPECIALLY THE LIBRARY, OH MAGNESIUM. i salute all of you librarians and other volunteers who helped out. and, i don't appreciate many teachers who obnoxiously claimed that they were doing all the work and just trying to handle the situation profesionally. especially that whiny, annoyingly loud one.

i'm sorry but screaming at your students every fifteen minutes?

even when it wasn't practically their fault?

not acceptable, lady.

on a happier note *lets out good sigh*,
i've never received such a sincere apology from someone whom i respect so much before. it just goes to show that i have every more reason of admiring and thinking highly of you, because you represent the ideal person who has top notch noble values, intellectual gifts of wisdom, extensive levels of comprehension for people but still realizes one's own mistakes and admits it like a true brave heart.


but really lah,
it wasn't all your fault. i know i should have been more responsible as someone who was put in charge. i hope it comes as lesson to me, as well. i only wish more people will grow up to be like you, namely myself.

thank you, great teacher.

i will never forget this moment, ever, as a part of my high school life in Seksyen 5 Wangsa Maju. :)

because i'm tired. so very tired.

on the other hand, my AFS interview went well, though. Yap's belly dancing made me laugh and TeckJia guessing during charades was the best. who would've ever guessed his word would be 'condom'.

DEBATE IS SO *BLEEP* TIRING

i can't read all this crap anymore. let me just do this like a normal secondary student would, please. there is no need for us to do it at a university level. BECAUSE WE'RE NOT.

i feel bad the most, for Khadijah, the fresh newbie debator. to be honest, this is not how debate was like in the past years. if it was, you know i wouldn't have followed it faithfully. IT WAS NEVER THIS BRAIN-COMPLICATING AND STRESSFUL. it used to be mainly in the good name of fun and competition but now it has turned into a psychotic, just-want-to-strive-and-win massacre.

look at how far Ezen's team went.

i'm not implicating that they didn't have to work hard, but merely stating that they didn't have to go this extensive level of commitment and brain-cracking even with a busy week ahead. and i actually saw them have fun and ventured into their fun. sumpah doh, I FEEL LIKE JUST QUITTING DEBATE

and here i go, the big talker,

back to reading more too-deep-and-UNunderstandable facts and what not to write my speech. because i got myself into it and was put in charge as the leader. maybe i shouldn't have been elected the leader, judging from the fact that i'm completely demoralized easily and refuse to join group discussions that will result in profanic replies like 'i am not confident in this at all' or 'i need you to edit this, edit that, make it less this/more that...' every.single.time.

DOOD,

WE DON'T HAVE A MASTER'S DEGREE IN PSYCHOLOGY.

AND I DON'T THINK WE CAN BE IN SIX DAYS.

because aku hebat. HAHA

happy birthday, Divya dearest! :)

i'm so awesome because i selected a terrible photo of myself to make you look better. auww

and OH HELLO i bought her the best bday present. EVAAA

neon yellow yaw. NEON YELLOW

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YES, my sistah ChayFhei.
here you go :D

so basically i got to do this muhibah-esque ad for RTM with Divs and Jaja. it took literally, a whole day to shoot this 2 minute thing. drained by the end of the day. but got pay + free lunch so thats good :)

see the ambulance at the far right? cool hor? the whole thing was shot in Taman Melawati.

Divya was the main in the whole thing. i was just an extra. but hey i had dialogues too so that was cool :D

i liked that mike thingy they use to capture the sounds and dialogues. fluffy. like a feather mop xD


JEREMY CHEW HONG CHUNG MUST WATCH THIS ( and also all you people who know that silly 'nobody, nobody but you' korean dance )

because you're different from all of them.

just walk away
i don't wanna be that girl again
that says goodbye to another broken hearted boyfriend


i'll let this slide
because you're different from all of them


i need to learn when i've had enough
i know it's hard when the going gets tough
but i don't want to stop this
so promise me you'll stay
and it's gonna be alright

someday you'll see, the hell is wrong with me
sometimes my mind is floating in another foreign galaxy
i'll leave behind all the tarot cards of an unknown prophecy

i'm gonna try to stay as sane as i could possibly
big girls still cry so please bear patience with me
you and i were a matchmade at my birthday party


It's Gonna Be Alright- Priscilla Ahn

because girls deserve to be a point.

Rules:*1. Those who get tagged must answer the question about themselves.
*2. At the end of the post, tag 10 people except the person who tagged you(tagger).*
3. Continue this game by sending to other people.(refer to rule No.2)


Time: night
Name: juyehh
Age/Birthday: 20th September 92. GO GET ME SOMETHING GO
School: the lovely SV :)


Elder sisters: wish i had
Younger sisters: wish i never had
Elder brothers: have.
Younger brothers: machas, can aa?


Favourite liquids[drinks]: currently craving BaskinRobbin's smoothie AAAAA
Favourite consumables[food]: CARBONARA MUMMY CARBONARA but sushi's fine too :D
Favourite place to sleep: the floor. liyana knows
Flying?: freefall. oh gravity
Swimming/Diving?: swim. i need a bathing suit!



How much friends in MSN?: 350 but i only talk to half lol
Couple?: sabar; lepas SPM kot
Loved ones?: juliyawern, SU, BAJU, family, sarahdorenejiali!


Get kicked on the butt: my brother does it alot but i'm a very forgiving person :)
Allergic?: i lied tht i had a reaction to pineapples just so i'd never have to eat them. heh
Gastric?: i remember that one incident walking back from the nightmarket... oh, not memorable


Whole fortune: fortune cookie?
Age of marriage?: ideal : i was promised 24, but i can do before 30 ;D
Children wanted?: 8 GIRLS 7 BOYS
Age of death?: prediction says 94. i believe earlier.
Animals in house?: Blacky :)
Longest fingernail ever kept : was when i was 15. despise long nails now
Wanted birthday present : have no fatty liver lulz


Q: In your dream, a god tells you that you are a billionaire in your dream world and gives you a wish. What would you wish for?
all women should be respected and treated right. ALWAYS.


10 persons to tag :
Chay Fheeeiii ;D
Anthea Sim
can i just tag two? malas aa.

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the way so many men are these days.

it is so appalling to me that great women i know have to stoop so low just to get yr attention and all you do is turn a blind eye. excuse me but if you don't know how to appreciate a woman and her efforts, you need to learn, mister. because if you don't, you should never ever be respected by real lady. thats if you ever want one in your life. COWARDS.

*calms self down*

it gives me great pride and joy that i have a good respectful relationship with the person i love so dearly. sometimes i don't even understand when my friends express their envy to what i have. well now i do. confession; 90% is because i have a person who is always patient in dealing with my ever swinging moods, constant PMS-ing gestures and unreasonable actions. so thank you! thank you for being so very amazing to me! :)

Brighter Discontent- The Submarines

because pictures speak thousands of words.

HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY ANTHEA!

i'm a day late BUT AAA I DON'T CARE. i think you know that i have blogged about you many times before. heh. and thats because i find you beautiful on the inside and outside and you have inspired me in many ways as a person. i pray that God continues showering His good blessings on you because it is all deserving :) have a lovely week, good friend!

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY, SARAH PARIS HILTON LEEE!

i'm so sorry i couldn't be there with you at Times today :( you're still my all time favourite bimbo, love. everytime i'm with you, i either go crazy with you or go crazy because of you haha. and you're so wonderfully amazing! i felt so cared for when you kept on asking me how i was doing with my headache two days ago. aww, you love me don't you? ;p God bless you, Paris! xx

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Amelia's 18th Birthday Partayy.

okay everyone get ready and take fabulous photos of me now!

so the cantik okeh

it was a very very fun party. everyone well, almost everyone *cough*exceptJohnandJeremy*cough* was dressed to the nines. and Amelia's dress was incredulous. i had a wonderful time though i left a little earlier. thanks for the invite, Amelia!

loves of my life :D

i simply cannot get over Dorene's hair. it was DA BOMB YAW

the signature rabbit face *squints*

BoonHoe ( and John ) rocking it as usual

'i've never had my house this noisy before'-Pastor Nancy

with good music, there is jumping..

and more jumping...

.. still jumping....


i look like this 75% of the time


a whole lot going on here



Jeremy is like so hot... *vomit blood*


SiuWern HAHAHA


okay everyone get yr fabulous pose on!
and only five were actually posing


:D


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Hospital.

photo taken by Divya

i lost alot of weight because i basically had no food in my body in tht past three days. yeah imagine vomiting it all out. and no i wasn't all smiley because i was happy Divya come xP. look at that skinny arm EEEEH

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Edna's Confirmation.

told you i would post the photos up :)

Vergara!





JuYi: COMECOME!
SiuWern: EHMAGOWD HOT GUY
Dianne: apa lu mau!?
Suzanne: AH CHUUU!
Edna: why am itching... *grabs*



geng Seksyen 5
SVian not in picture: Johnathan Chua

in picture not SVian: John James Chew

Lunch with the Rajan clan -> Pavillion.

yes, i was so focused on the food i didn't even bother





munched that bugger down in 5 mins yo

typical. :)

6/7; the SU :)

Sex On Fire- Kings Of Leon

because maturity does not depend on age.

JiaLi has got some sick skills man.
future husband sgt bertuah. AHAK


but before we dived into all the fun of joining and watching the Jeremy's group's dance rehearsal for the mission trip this Friday, we had lunch together with some other good friends. the endless conversation led to a topic that was once rather concerning to me.


basically, i've known JiaLi all my high school life. she is... an incredibly amazing, unique and strong person and it was sad that i only got to know her better in form3 when my clique was not with me. she helped open my perspectives and views to people and life. she was the one who helped change my opinion and the way i look at life today, as compared to the days before. i thank her so much for that.


i got a helpful sharing of her anger and dissatisfaction when she brought up an old story of how someone had once spread rumours that she was a lesbian. the word got quite far and of course, it is a very uncomfortable matter to deal with, having people give you weird stares and asking you stupid 'are you really a lesbian?' questions. no offence to my non-straight friends at all, please. i don't mean this as a hit to you.

well,

to all of you whom i KNOW are still spreading rumours about her,

go.fly.a.bloody.kite.

please.

i decided to share my own story regarding someone saying things about me that i didn't like. i think it was my first attendance in a new church. Friend A told his friend, B about me and back then, Friend A actually had a thing for me so he pointed out to B that i was the girl he was going after.

'oh.. how can you like that kind of girl ah?'

or something like that, basically.

i was apalled, furious and uncomfortable with the response. here is a person who literally didn't even know me but decided to judge me on first base. judge on what, my dressing? my appearance? not that i have a very outstanding appearance anyway. and what kind of girl... am i? seriously.


my confidence died down for a moment in that time. and i stopped attending that church. i remember crying to sleep about it once. because i couldn't believe that i was seen as something unpleasant in other people's eyes. it was disappointing for me because i had let a stranger's opinion influence my behaviour and actions. because i was and still am sometimes, the type of person which absorbs a hit hard and completely. i prayed and asked for wisdom to come upon myself.


thank God because it was a great slap needed in my face.


to harshly remind me of all those times where i had once also, judged people by first impression. these things are the little things in life that i believe, force you to mature. because when you put yourself in someone else's shoes, you see through their eyes and feel with their emotions. then you compare it to your own experience. and you learn from it. you learn to stop doing dumb things, and be wiser in the future.


and see, these two people who made unfriendly remarks and opinions about JiaLi and I are actually much older than we are, in terms of years. and they were both cases that happened a couple of years ago. not just based on both of our experiences, but other similar stories that i have heard has made truly believe that we all forgive but we never forget.


this makes me very thankful once more, that i am surrounded with positive people who do not speak of people's lives negatively and not even influence me in doing any of that. i am deeply saddened for the people i know who have sunk into that ugly bitter place due to unconscious influence from friends. because there is so much more to life than making up stories and unfriendly gossip.

i've been into that bitter place before.

and it was hard to climb out of it.

but hey, i did it.

so i hope you can too.

thank you, loves of my life! :)
and especially you, Sarah Lee. my crazy, five year old Paris Hilton bimbo ;p



Make Some Noise- Krystal Meyers

because i ain't straight, yaw.

my favourite women all in one picture!? this cannot be! *gasps*

am supposed to be writing the feature article for the Mag Inc thingy,

but am viewing hot girls' photos on Facebook instead.

i'm a lesbo.

let me beeeeeeeeee

other than that,

my day is filled with happiness. hahaha how cheesy.

Noel, your sister is so beautiful it's disturbing!

teppanyaki lunch,

ocha refills,

train rides,

escalator rides,

bumping into brother,

bumping into friends,

Haagen Daaz,

travelling from building to building,

stopping in front of lingerie shop,

shoe hunting,

KFC,

hopeful future prom gown,

running across roads,

running from shoe saleslady,

TouchNGo cards,

laughing after being pissed off for five minutes,

photostat machine,

hoop earrings,

cookies and cream shake,

being with you. :)

first of many more to come <3

Blue Sands- Yuna

because it's a Grace tag! =D

Ten Things i Wish i Could Say to Ten Different People (but don't say their naaame):


1. honey, he's mine. back off already, byotch. *insert sinister laugh*
2. the world's not a terrible place, love.
3. your future one will be the luckiest person ever to meet you.
4. i think your butt's real, Kim Kardashian! biar ah aku nk sebut nama
5. i'll help you make it okay. :)
6. you'll remember my name. trust me.
7. LEAVE HER ALONE, PLEASE
8. i still think you are exceptionally beautiful
9. admit it, you're being a wuss.
10. i'd like to thank my family... everyone who's supported me in venturing into this career... *takes tissue out to wipe dripping make up*... my Oscar-acceptance speech, people


Nine things about myself :

1. i sweat like Bart Simpson's pig.
2. Jai Ho is a dance i'll never get tired of. *starts jiggiding*
3. i was a sadist when i was kid.
4. Nadeem, Logan, Kuhan and Naveen are my black machas. Ganageas takde, sorry
5. i have fatty liver LULZ
6. i have an obsession with analyzing women.
7. but i'm perfectly straight... at least i think i am.
8. but hey, i love a boy to death! :D
9. i was once in a coma when i was what, a few months old?
10. i nearly drowned trying to save a friend from a swimming pool end rofl


Eight ways to win my heart :

1. there's
2. no
3. way
4. because
5. my
6. heart's
7. won
8. over :)


Seven things that cross my mind a lot :

1. death geez maybe i still am a sadist
2. the internet xD
3. the boy who runs like the wind
4. flashlights
5. people
6. lyricalquotes
7. comparisons and comprehension



Six things I do before I fall asleep :

1. stretch. on my bed.
2. pray.
3. be comfortable on my flat pillow.
4. cuci muka.
5. lap muka.
6. letak krim kat muka.



Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever) :

1. the boy
2. the liyawern
3. the SU
4. the M wooseh you got yr own shortform kot ;D
5. the family


Four things your wearing right now :

1. loose rubberband
2. I LOVE SV shirt, ooh semangat
3. sports bra
4. sweaty running pants


Three places that you want to go:

1. heaven
2. Bermuda Triangle omg i totally didn't notice you wrote the same thing in yr next question! xD
3. top of Mount Fuji



Two things you want to do before you die :

1. get married.
2. have fifteen kids. 8 GIRLS 7 BOYS OKAY


One confession :

1. i lie about my skeletons in the cupboard.


DO IT;

LI
YA
WERN have fun in Vietnam! its Vietnam, right?
M ;D
stalker, if you wanna do, do aa. i don't mind :)

because it's time for Thanksgiving! haha

so, throughout my short but dreadful stay in the hospital,
so many people called, messaged, visited... geez man.

THANK YOU.

you all make me feel so loved ;p

fellow SUs all caaame :)
the liyawern!
aunt who gave me 50bucks for fun and family
neighbours, pastor Vong, Chews, Melydiaaaa


big shoutout to The Sister who was with me half of the time and The Sister's Boyfriend who visited me twice! and also never failed to make me laugh hahaha crazy flipboy. my mommah... oh my mommah, who was with me like 90% of the time... i feel so incredulously bad for taking up so much of your time... but fret not; when i become famous superstar in future, you'll live with me in my 31208665 storey villa, yeah? siap ngan elevator fuiyoo~

who else am i forgetting, hmm? LOL

of course... the person who was with me for what, 7+ hours on the 2nd day? and still came the next day with your dad? in which before i forget; thank you for praying for me uncle :). come to think of it, i've never spent time with you without interference for... such a long time before.


i thank you for messaging and calling me constantly, buying me KinderBueno tho i can't eat it yet, buying me 100+, buying me egg sandwich, lending Pingu to me!, lending yr pillow to me, wheeling me on the wheelchair around the hospital, holding my hand while i slept, resisting my PMSesque temper whenever i crashed, made those gay 'AIYAW' noises to make me laugh, feeding me grapes as if i'm Cleopatra, fluffed my pillow from time to time, forced me to drink water from time to time, washed my hair yes he washed my hair can you believe it, and last but not least... spending time with me and making it all a little less bitter.

you're like sunshine on a cloudy day <3

thank you also for all those who were concerned!
like how Ellen would say it;

right back at ya. i take it all in, i take it in, put it in my pocket, and ohh i take it all in thank you so much.

;p

because it's a rude awakening.

BEFORE I START..

gimme time to release my depression first, can?

incredibly, incredibly upset with the fact that i..

• couldn't celebrate Teacher's Day as it is my last year here in SV
• couldn't celebrate my mother's birthday
• couldn't see my good friends before the holidays started
• couldn't finish my mom's surprise bday card
• couldn't buy teachers' presents
• because i lost my wallet containing a hefty load of money
• vomitted 11 times in a day, six in which were in an hour
• vomitted all my medication from two different doctors
• made my mom rush me from clinic(s) to hospital on her birthday
• made my mom spend a bomb on hospital/med fees
• trip back from hospital brought back my insane headaches
• which disabled me from visiting my dad today
• because its his birthday
  

*inhales and exhales*

YES

i'm back! :D

still have to rest alot and finish up medication but that should be easy since it's the midyear break

i'm pretty much, literally, a sick girl, aren't i?

being admitted to hospital three times in nine months.. not much fun.

but the stay in the hospital is always funny though.

met some funny nurses *cough*nurse who originated from CBN*cough*, my doctor who wasn't as charming as my previous appendix surgeon, the same male nurse who injected my wrist for drips during my past two visits...

you remember her? she had appendicitis a few months back.

oh. YOU AGAIN AH? whats your problem now?

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ironic; the fact that they had to run blood tests because i was a potential dengue victim according to symptoms. but it turns out negative and instead, they find that the enzyme activity in my liver is not optimal. thus, the ultrasound scan the next day.

okay la, trying to make this as least dramatic as possible rofl,

but the doctor discovered that i have fatty liver.

also known as fatty liver disease (FLD), steatorrhoeic hepatosis, or steatosis hepatitis, is a reversible condition where large vacuoles of triglyceride fat accumulate in liver cells. the symptoms are very bland and non-specific but mostly occurs in alcoholics & the obese society. they may, however, have occasional abdominal pain. not intense, not severe, and no pattern. fatty liver can also be genetic.

when i got the news, to be honest.. i was just shocked. my jaw dropped to the squeaky clean floor in the hospital. i believe i lead quite a normal lifestyle for a Malaysian. not excessively healthy, but definitely not unhealthy. i don't eat junk food for any of my main three meals of the day, i don't smoke, i'm not alcoholic rofl excuse my wine moment a few weeks back, i do sports, i rarely sleep very late... and for this case, i have to admit that i am NOT fat, or anywhere near obese. BMI is at a good normal scale...

i was shocked.

the doctor was surprised as well.

i like to believe it is 90% genetic from my father who did have fatty liver, but no one really knows.

what more,

it is not a common disease, esp in teenagers like me, but is slowly becoming common among us Malaysians who have the daily cravings for roti canai, nasi lemak, and char kuay teow. and if no action is done, fatty liver can lead to many other health risks like cirrhosis, heart attacks and high blood pressure in the long period.

so can you imagine if you have fatty liver, and you never knew about it?

i have to be considered lucky that i actually knew that i had it. and it's not at a serious stage... yet. so here comes good and consistent workout plans and more healthy eating. and if I can get fatty liver, are you still sure that you are overall healthy?

please, please.

all my readers.

i don't care how old you are or whether or not you lead a better and healthier lifestyle than i do, i seriously encourage you to one day, get yourself a full body scan because this affects your life.

if you can't afford it,

eat.

pray.

love. :)