Feels Like, Like..

i think Mei's homeboy looks really fat from the back.
*runs away*

re-edit laterr.
off to a halloween partayh.

EDIT

i was a suicided, goth girl. :D

and i have to say;

the
best
halloween
party
ever

no no nooooooo~

Divya should be going for a concert la. EDNA AND I are the ones coming for a Halloween party here.

thats the awesome party planners, Sarah and Syaza. :):)

more pics to come soon. :D

I'll Be Your Love- Nicole Scherzinger

You Know I Love You

Gossip Girl is the most addictive series i've watched in my life.

have you watched the preview for the next ep? ;)

*screams*

SOMEONE UPLOAD THE EPISODE ALREADY.

my friend

please don't treat me this way

No One- Alicia Keys

Clicked

FINALLY i upload photos.


Rane and Johnson's Wedding

fashion faux
one of the main rules when you attend a wedding;



NEVER wear white.
NEVER wear a dress that will look like the bride's gown.
stupid.



i think these are waterflowers?
yeah those are flowers in the waterglass ngok.
real pretty, eh? x)



the wedding Estima.


a baby sitting opposite me that i stalked. xP


=)

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Adrian's Halloween Dinner Event

since Adrian's studying restaurants, i think he and his college were given an assignment to host this fine dining event Halloween-themed at Taylors yesterday. his sister and a friend, Victor, attended; while my aunt, mom, sister and friend attended as well.

one ticket = Rm57. *jaw drops*
LUCKILY, all our tix were free since well, Adrian was part of the event. =DD

pictures.



my spritzy drink.
don't be fooled by how simple it looks yaaw.
tasted awesome.

the cool deco;

on the ceiling

on my table

and outside.

i remember there was a very scary looking scarecrow in the toilet, with little red eyeballs all over the floor, so i made my sister go in the toilet with me. xD

the food;appetizer; chicken, potato, mushroom.

DISGUSTING vegetable that tasted like YeeSang.

the very over-spilling green pea soup

seafood pasta :D

watermelon gebasco. yupp; watermelon + tebasco =x

main course; grilled duck. A++ dohh.

and for the desert;

chocolate trio! *squeals*

thank GOD Adrian knows how to make this. =DD

now, the dudes. :)

sir Adrian. =)

sir Victor a.k.a friend-from-church a.k.a blardeefarnayhman a.k.a the dude who drove me home.

honestly, when he was driving me there and back, i thought i was gonna literally die; either from shock or a big time car accident. THAT was how scary, dangerous and fast he was driving.

and GUESS who i met there...

xD

Big Girls ( You Are Beautiful )- Mika

Freaks

i think my brother's gay.

tryna be all cutesy and stuff. *vomits*

anyway, i added this girl on myspace, from Sam's friend list.
her name's Zoe and she lives in Georgia.

mat salleh; ahaks. xD

she makes me jealous in, well, every way possible.

she's.so.pretty. *fidgets*

and she's a Jonas Brothers freak i'm telling ya FREAK.

she goes to almost all their concerts, she gives them the wackiest presents ever, she gets to be in all the meet&greet sessions, and they remember her. how gilerbabi cool is that!?!?!?!

sorta reminds me of mrlegendary John Lennon; the woman he married was a go-to-each-and-every-concert fan kaay. :)

Zoe; i think you're gonna end up with Nick Jonas.

seriously. :):)

You're Just What I Need- Cliff

Sucker

you know what..
i spent, SO MANY DAYS AND WEEKS freaking crying and emo-ing about what happened to US.

about how i still have so much feelings for you.
about how you said; 'you know .. you're the first girl i ever really liked so much' and all that shit that i just took in, like the sissy i am.

and its only been less than a month.
and here you are, with a new girl.

i can't believe i fell for all your shit.

but now that i look back;
i am BEYOND happy i ended what was going on between us.

for a loser like you, i'd just be wasting my time.
bastard.

Different Dreams

i had a a dream last night. i was holding two very pretty cards F handmade ( no i have no idea how it got into my hands ) and on one it said 'still on my mind' and the other one said 'miss you so much'. and i was crying, if i'm not mistaken.

today i fractured the ball of my feet

i was dancing to HighSchoolMusical's Work It Out and i rammed the ball of my feet into a steel bucu of my furniture. painful beyond belief.

fark you, chair.
*shows middle finger to chair*

oh and to people who can stand listening to a whole lot of cursing, watch this uber funny video. got my brother, his friends, a few of mine and my mom laughing.

watch it with a friend.
the laughter is better. xD

goombas can suck my balls

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yesterday I attended my cousin sister's wedding. =)

her name is RANE. pronounced as Rain roflmaolmaolmao

it was actually pretty fun; despite the fact that my parents got to sit at the bride and bridegroom's table and my brother, sister and i sat next to some stranger family somewhere far behind and the not-so-yummy food.

pictures will be uploaded. ;)

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yesterday i attended Princess' open house. =D

with Divs looking like the anak gadis Melayu in her kurung and me in my baggy pants and hoodie, not so many people lahh were attendees because it was supposed to be a private open house. wait, huh?

and her mom cooks the best spaghetti. ever.

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yesterday i went to KLCC with Amanda

am supposed to go with Divs but her father didn't let her so she gave me her ic so that i can go for the It's A Girl Thing with someone else who was as desperate; AMANDAA! xD

she had on a very the sexxay blue shirt and ultra mini skirt while i had my tube and baggy pants on, attracting many i-wanna-rape-you men throughout our journey to and in KLCC. when we arrived, we went to the Centre Court; nothing was happening.

okay.
we went to the concierge and asked for directions.

do you know where the It's A Girl's Thing event taking place?

excuse me; what event is that?

O.O .. the one that Seventeen organized?

oh its probably at the Convention Centre.

die you, Divya.

we walked a long 10 minute walk to the ConventionCentre through an indoor bridge and when he finally reached, we got lost. so we asked someone else;

do you know where's the blablablabla..

... huh?

O.O the one that Seventeen organized?

i think its along the way of that corridor yedayedayeda..

....

Divyaaaaaa.

i called her and she said it was in some C corridor or whatever, so i just tried searching and searching. mind you;

• the event starts at 11; it was already 12
• our legs were aching
• we were hungry
• i called Divs a numerous number of times already
• i asked alot more people for direction
• we ended up being lost, lost and lost

miss, *sigh* do you know where's the It's A Girl Thing event taking place?

ummm. i'm sorry. if i'm not mistaken, its next month.

*jaw drop for 5 seconds*

*makes a call*

hello?

Aunty. *sigh* is Divya or Nalina there? can either one of them help check the real date of the event?

*laughs* okay wait ah ....

*Nalina in background*: omg its 23rd to 25th November!

... *deeper sigh*

hahaha sorry JuYi.

*jaw still open* thanks Aunty, its alright.

and yesterday, was the 26th of October.

in my mind, there was this great illusion of Div and I becoming never-able-to-die lidi people and was killing her over and over again with every weapon possible; parang, rifle gun, pencils, baseball bat ...

i am a violent person.

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yesterday i nearly got pickpocketed

Amanda and i went to have lunch at the foodcourt.

i was lining up, still having imaginations of me chopping Div into ready-to-be-made-into-soup pieces until i felt the side pocket of my bag opening. mind you; i have this gigantic bag that would be impossible to feel any vibrations going on whatsoever but well, my bag and i have got connections you see ;). i got an immediate shock and looked to my side pocket; it was open.

i stoned for a while.

hallelujah.
my handphone, DIVYA'S IC, lipgloss and comb is still there.

i also had a glimpse of a man's hand near the pocket before it quicky moved away.

i turned around, a young man in pink and a small sling bag was behind me. he walked away from the line, and started walking quickly to other places.
i was pretty sure it was his hand; so i observed him.

he was annoyingly fidgeting in other lines and as i kept my eye on him, out of nowhere he opened what seemed like a black leather wallet. a thick rush of zing went through my adrenaline and i was definite that he was the person trying to steal my handphone.

i decided to follow him from a far range, without him noticing.

after a few moments, he started walking even faster and i tried chasing after him. he quickly turned to the right into a big crowd and when i turned along, he was no longer visible.

DAMMIT.
why did i have to stone?
he was shorter than me for goodness sake i could've slapped him.

imagine what scene i would've created if i grabbed him by his hand and yelled 'did i see your hand in my bag pocket!?'.
p.s; there were a lot of i-can-pounce-on-you-like-a-tiger men around me at that moment so yeah. just imagine what it would've all look like weyh!

i bet he prolly had alot more stolen stuff in his pockets and bag.
pfft.

you HAD TO STONE, JUYIIII.

why didn't you slap him? or jump on him?

Gai Bian Zi Ji- Wang Lee Hom

Addiction

its really late.
i'ma continue my post tomorrow morning.

BUT for now;

i recommend everyone in the world who is currently stalking this blog of mine, WATCH GOSSIP GIRL =)=)

Shut Up And Drive- Rihanna

Draught

i'm feeling rather .. droggy. =s
i have no idea what that means but that word's stuck in my mind. xD

its 6.30 in the morning and i didn't feel like sleeping anymore.
i guess i'll just update further on when i'm back later.

taaaa~

EDIT

everybody all for oooone!

a real summer has just beguuun!

everybody's gotta love today.
gotta love today.
gotta love today.

what a pity.
of all days, i did not bring my camera.

kak Syahirah wants to play a three-song piano performance for the upcoming prefect dinner and she needed someone to sing for them. When You're Gone, Hey There Delilah, and the ever famous; You Are The Music In Me.

i thought it would be fun. =DD

so i went to see her and yay, i'm singing for all of the song pieces except Hey There Delilah which would make me a total lesbo if i did. i've got a bit of the panic laa, since i'm not really a good singer and i'm sorta screeching x( for When You're Gone. she's also panicking la, since there was actually gonna be an audition for the performances later on that day.

after school, the infamous not-a-Svian-yet-but-always-coming-to-our-school Divya, Samantha and I stalked went to Mei's house coz she wanted to change into pj's and prove that she had normal boobs when i thought she was a large blablabla..

mummy if you think MY room is messy, you HAVE NOT seen MeiYing's room

why?

the messiest room i've seen in my LIFE. its got clothes everywhere; stacked in a corner, on the floor, and pencils and stationery what nots and..

her mom tak marah mehh?

hahaaa i know you'd spank her already

spank her? i'll terminate her entire life la SPANK.

us foursome then went to Carrefour.
makan-ed with Celine, BoonieAunnie, Kuhan and Ravinder at BK.

eh JuYi help me buy two cheeseburgers

Kuhan you're such a fat ass.

not for me la, one more for Ravinder la ngook.

oh ....... xD

and i came back with the burgers...

Ravinder:

wtf i cannot eat BEEF la!

apparently, we so-called Ravinder's good friends forgot that he couldn't eat beef, and were totally blaming each other for the ummm, 'accident'.

such awesome friends Ravinder has, really.

and THIS time, Mei dropped sauce on her pants.
oh you didn't hear bout the previous liquid-squirting incident?

i was with her in Carrefour galavanting for fun after school last Monday, and we bought those really yummy and satisfying waffle pancakes after our lunch. i had a peanut butter and choc, as very usual while she had just plain chocolate. we sat down on a nearby bench to slowly enjoy our make-you-fat-like-crap food and i have NO IDEA how this girl ate;

she squirted some of her chocolate sauce from her waffle onto her blue baju kurung.

and amazingly, it landed perfectly on the boob area.

pfft. who cares?

who wants to see it anyway...

and immediately, some random dude just walks past us and stared at Mei's boob stained shirt.

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had to rush back to school with Mei for the performance audition thingy.

i just knew that my fellow form2 friends were going to dance something to High School Musical,
since more than half of my previous HSMaudition teammates were also in the SAL room for the auditions. and they were dancing to All For One, following the original steps from the music video.

the auditions were soon then over.
apa lagi?
Divs, Mei, Celine and I tried to immitate the steps as quick as possible while they continued practising and started jiggiding behind them.

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i've never went; this mad .. in a very very long time.
i danced literally, two to three hours straight and at one point, i just collapsed to the ground, smiling to myself breathing like i just ran across the globe.

i danced so much..

• my thick black school Art Club shirt was soaking.
• even my pants were soaking
• my hair was dripping with sweat
• my plastic hairband got wet
• my arms and legs are currently aching

• there was never a single moment, i thought about my worries and problems that have been weighing me down, in the past few weeks.

=)

if you can baby boy ,we can go all night

Shut Up And Drive- Rihanna

Winning Women

my two still-favourite idols;
with their latest performances.



Rihanna
performing Shut Up and Drive



Nicole Scherzinger
performing Baby Love




i can't even say which one was better.
both have improved like gilerh.



aMAAAAAAAzing vocals.
aMAAAAAAAzing stage presence.
aMAAAAAAAzing unique sense of style.
aMAAAAAAAzing different looks.


i wonder why the song that they did together; Winning Women was such a flop.

although its pretty saddening that videos and the PCD fansite's not the same already, since 90% of it is all bout Nicole Nicole Nicole.



Pussycat Dolls.
when are you girls coming back?

i loved you once; needed protection

you're still a part of everything i do

you're on my heart just like a tattoo

.i'll always have you.

Tattoo- Jordin Sparks

Retail Therapy

i am the most flat chested girl ever.

i went to Aunty Ah-Lien's house today for my get-a-few-dresses-for-the-coming-events session.

WRONG.
apparently, this aunty of mine is

i quote mummy;

'damn filthy rich'

end quote.

and she often goes to events and stuffs like that, so she's got a whole lot of dresses and evening gowns in her closet. don't know if you guys have heard of the Pinang Apartment somewhere near KLCC; yeah apparently it belongs to her family.

in my mind, i pictured;

middle-aged looking with a whole lotta forehead lines, tattoo-ed eyebrows and eyelids, average but sagging boobs, sagging fat everywhere, big-patterny eye-popping coloured shirts, wears big white pearls, small-eyed woman.

when i opened the door;

30-year old looking with the smoothest skin i've seen in my life, perfectly shaped eyebrows, fit and rather big boobs, fit legs that i want i want i want, flat stomach, spaghetti straps and shorts, pearly white teeth, beautiful big eyes lady.

wtf.

she's so HOT.

and she's my aunty!?

she greeted me with the very typical reaction;

'oh my God JuYi you're so tall!'

and immediately went to her room and dug out a handful of beautiful cheongsams, evening dresses, gowns and outfits. i had an eye on this plain dark red, knee-length cheongsam and it was some kononnya expensive brand that i tak pernah dengar; Ecesis or something. but it looked so small. *pouts* whatever; my mom and her told me to go and try it on and i did.

it fitted me.

O.O

that shall be my outfit to the form3 dinner.

*big teethy smile*

2nd outfit; prefect dinner dress.

i wanted something all-the-way-to-my-ankle long, black like the theme no not white people xD and not too complicated. so she piled on the table three to four black evening gowns and i immediately had a click to this thin spaghetti strap, belly-button-low bareback black satin gown. another brand i tak pernah dengar; Maxazria.

this one looked even tiny-er than the cheongsam!

never the less, i tried it on.

hallelujah.

it fitted me in all the right places.

=)

3rd outfit; my cousin's upcoming wedding.
easy lahh.
i just chose this bright red halter, freaking-low-but-rather-cun bareback, kneelength, slightly higher than the knee bubble dress by SiuWern Celine, i think.

i bid my i-am-so-lucky-to-have-her aunty goodbye in half an hour and went to KLCC to re-apply for another job, since no bloody manager called me on Monday. liars. *sticks tongue out* i went to Chocz, because according to FooFy who is already working there who looked ultra-cute in her uniform xD, they are still looking for workers and stuff like that.

please give me the job.
*bats eyes in the most horny way possible*

my mom followed me there, then she went off to Parksons and let me galavant around the mall myself. as my usual KLCC outings, i had my 1901 hotdoggie and strolled around KLCC in my heels like some twenty year old. its funny la really because i don't even dress or talk my age, and demand people to remember i'm fifteen.

what a loser.
ha ha haaa.
even my aunty thought i was eighteen or something.

mom bought a peach dress for little JuAnn for the dinner AND my long-craved-for; black baggy pants from Romp. i've been wanting it since the start of the year! *jumps around*

Mika's Love Today is buzzing in my head. 8D

I Feel It All- Feist

Half Empty

boohoo.
i'm still a wee bit pessimistic from all that emo-ness going on before this.

annoyingly, when i want to cry today, not much tears was willing to flow out.

pelik giler.
JuYi cannot cry?
man there must be something really wrong.

so yeah i was sort-of crying, and lying on my parents bed with the air-con turned to the lowest temperature possible, trying to sleep, constantly bothered by little noises, looking at my blank ceiling.


*handphone beeps*

hello JuYi!

hi Div.

guess what guess what!?

yeah...

i read this article in Seventeen bout this annual Girl's Outing Day that is gonna be happening in KLCC this Friday. the first 250 people who smses in get free two tickets for a movie, a free makeover blablablaiwasntlisteningmuchreally...

oh .. okay ... cool ...

JuYi! you're coming with me!

... oh, i am?

yeah that literally cut down my emo-ness.
i guess no therapy is better than a full day of pampering, huh?

Little Things- Colbie Caillat

Faaarg

i'm sorry that i had to end it this way.
what; you think it'd only hurt for you?
you think i wanted this to happen?
and you thought my feelings for you were all fake, didn't you?

F, you made me cry.

but then again, i can't blame you.
coz the only one i can blame throughout this whole situation is myself.

i'm sorry that this is not ending yet.
i know you're angry.
i know you're upset.

and you're prolly thinking 'i shouldn'tve fell for a girl so problematic like you.'

you know what ....
maybe you shouldn't have.

you were so confident that i would be the perfect girl of your dreams.

you were wrong.

i'm just not.

not for anyone.

you shouldn'tve wasted your time and money over a girl like me.
i'm not worth a person like you; at all.

i pray my only memory with you are our good times.

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sorry Mei.
today was an awesome day.

i'll blog all bout it later when i feel less like crying or something.

Midnight Bottle- Colbie Caillat

Regretting

i have;

I'm A Cyborg, but Thats Okay
Gossip Girl- ep 5
Pushing Daisies

to watch.
and its all on youtube.

hallelujah.

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i usually don't like it when my aunties and uncles and couzzies nephews nieces are all at my house. the space in my already-sempit house just gets even little, and living in a family of 6-7 does not help. some of them smoke, have hella loud voices, drink, etc etc.

however i love it when my dad's eldest sister is here,

with her son whom is already married.
who loves disturbing me.
whom i love to disturb also.
who thank God, can speak English, besides the rest of my humongous family tree.


he's 6 feet 2.
i feel awesome standin next to him.
i feel so much less of a giant. :D


i'm not a fan of my mom's side of the family tree, though.
all of them are rude.
no seriously.

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i miss Katrina Yeoh Su Yen. :(

i miss Joshua Cheah Ching Yong. :(


see!
i don't even have a picture with either of you with my latest hairstyle.

if i knew i couldn't go out today with the both of you because i have been out galavanting too much, i would've skipped/cancelled my previous outings.

gua sangat rindu. :(

Finally- Fergie

Say Goodbye

Nothing will ever change no matter what you say
I'm still gonna be the same
You're still gonna be the same
The harder we try, the harder that we fight, can't get it right

So I scream, scream cause it hurts
Your every word
Cuts me inside and leaves me worse
There's no way back
Even if there was
You'd still be you
and I'd still need to say goodbye


.to the three men who are still special in my life, in their different ways.

Say Goodbye- Ashlee Simpson

The JuYi is Rising

oh RAAAAAAAAAAAIN. if i were younger, honey .. but then again,
there's Demi and Ashton so .. i still got my chance. =)
-May Lee-

well peeps.
i did not get the JLINK modelling job.


For your age u can clearly speak a reasonable english. I'm very happy for u that u are a very confident girl as well. But what is setting u back is actually your age. You are still too young for many things. Right now study hard, and when u are a little bit older, i'm sure u'll do good in this line or whatever line u choose to be

talk bout drama gileeer. xD

oh well.
i guess he/she? IS speaking the truth.

i'm fifteen laa; model? haaa.

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kiddy field trip to KLCC today!

with the ever always-going-out-with-her FooFy, Amanda, and Batista Artisha.

in fact, i've been going out with these three people .. all the time. O.O

all of us except twelve year old Artisha were on the hunt and lookout for part-time jobs. ones with good pay la fwartdurh. FooFy was lucky to get a job like snap fast at small cafe, Chocz. whilst on the OTHER HAND, Amanda and moii galavanted to almost the whole of klcc.

we tried EVERYWHERE.

gucci, romp, topshop, nike, teddytales, princess, miss sixty, lebanese cuisine, levi's, secret recipe ... and a few hundred other outlets. oh God my poor tired feet.

i wore heels today, but i packed my uber comfy white flats in a plastic bag, so i can change my footwear when i get tired or whatever. genius me. =D

and someone is so sick crazy of Joseph.

HAHAA stalker.

and after searching beyond high and low, i wound up with an application form with Watsons, California Pizza and Stadium. Stadium's a rather big outlet next to Kinokuniya and it sells sports attire; clothing shoes everything blah. the lady manager seemed pretty cool and the pay was a nice Rm4.50 an hour.

i honestly won't mind working there, coz the outlet itself is pretty cool.
oooh i can't wait until the companies call on Monday. xD

we then watched The Seeker; The Dark Is Rising.
we had no clue what the movie was about, but we just needed to waste time. and i've watched the ad on tv once and it seemed pretty interesting.

watch the preview. *no one's asking you to click here, fool.*

can i fly?
what?
you know .. woosh.

if you think Resident Evil's awesome, you definitely have not watched this.
starring Alexander Ludwig, WHO IS SO FREAKING CUUUTE.

don't be fooled by the photo peeps.

he is way, way better looking that that.

picture;

teen version of Desperate Housewives' Lynette's husband,
and a blonde version of my mr Reiley Mcclendon the third.

i still love you babyyy!

its very very Harry Potter and Narnia-like, you know; it was based on a storybook series, has the very hauntingly dark side of the story, has the ability to make you jump out of your seat, shriek, squeal, panic and go 'ohmygodO.O'. it was extrreeemely confusing in the very start but as it goes on it just gets amazing and amazing-er.

i love it.
i love it.
i love it.

a movie worth paying to watch, people.

its a surprise though that this movie is getting so little publicity.
wasted.

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i love you, Amanda! =DD

Beautifully Broken- Ashlee Simpson

Change Me

i love LeeHom's new album.
although his previous album was better, this one's good itself. =)

Change Me

lots of catchy tunes.
and i especially love Gai Bian Zi Ji Change Me.
it sorta brings out the meaning of changing yourself to change the current world we live in.


soooo my kind of lyrics.


and you know what, this 30 year old dude is MAJOR talent.
he sings, he writes his own music, he dances, he PLAYS instruments ..
18 types of instruments people.

and he can act!
just makes me think; why are people such mad fans of Jay Chou?
he is nothing compared to Mr Wang here.
i mean .. all he has is looks which i don't even think he has.

no offence, gay Jay Chou fans.

since i'm SUCH a banana, the only Chinese lyrics where i'm desperate enough to memorize and learn through pinyin are of FIR and LeeHom songs. yupp only them.

and i watched Blades Of Glory. again.

with Divya this time. heh.

i also found a job! *sing hallelujah praises*

i don't know whether i'm going to get it or not, but the job is as a model for the upcoming JLINK Machinery Fair from the 24th - 28th of October in KLCC itself.


RM110 A DAY.
yeah now don't you want it too?
and IF i get it, i'm gonna get like, RM500+.


my mom was the one who found the job for me, so i guess its .. safe?
I REALLY WANT IT.
RM500 DOOOOHHHHH! *pulls hair out*



You're A Song In My Heart- Lee Hom ft Selina

Of Friends and Hearts

Emilio looks like some modern Spanish god. rofl

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i really love my new skin.

oh i've said that already? xD

so i went to miss Samantha's house today, as stated in my previous post to have our usual heart-to-heart talks and go wild. spent most of the time in her room on the computer as i made her watch SoYouThinkYouCanDance videos with me.

current favourite;

the all-time favourite x): Lacey and Kameron's contemporary piece.

and we watched Blades of Glory.

my 7th time watching.

i'm sorry la i'm a sucker for gay movies.

its reeeeeeally funny. go go go watch it its better than Chuck and Larry!

joke.

Sam bought me us this really pretty and rather cool necklace sets.

its two chains; both separately holding two pieces of one heart. on one it says BES and the other one says TIE.

x BES TIE x

i took the BES. :)

i love Samantha very muchie. *hugs*

i also kinda hate you, coz you already found your perfect black dress which you look amazingly perfect in for the prefect dinner which is coming too very soon and guess what MY MOM said on going out shopping for my dress?

oh why don't you borrow one from aunty xx?

Cockney Girl- Wang Lee Hom

Skinny

hey check my new specs out
mom. they're so nerdy.
yeah i know cool huh huh?
daddy you married a nerd!
and i married a male bimbo.

forget it peeps.
i love my new skin now. :)

We Ride- Rihanna

New Friend

Samantha's got a blog! *clickity*
she hasn't really started postint yet laa .. but yeah she has a blog!
i'm actually at her house this very second and she's watching some show on tv right now so hey, there's no waaaay i'm leaving this computer alone. ;p

her blogskin's nice right right right?
i got it for her. :D
i'm not a Kate Moss fan la but darn that skin is awesooooome.

my skin is so dull.
nice skins, anyone?

Great Escape- Boys Like Girls

Nadeem Rafiq.
FUCK OFF.

i guess you'll just never understand, you know?
i just don't know.


Say Goodbye- Ashlee Simpson

Environmental

its half an hour to midnight.
which ends 15th October 2007.
i'ma try to make my thought real fast and simple.
couldn't use the internet AT ALL today so yes forgive me.

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times when i look outside of of the car window.
times when i walk down the routine alley i walk through everyday in my neighbourhood.


looking at the beautiful green trees and crisp grass.
looking at the tormenting Sun that we sometimes hate
looking at the big pretty clouds; as if they were smiling at me.
looking at rivers flowing freely like soulbirds.

i get lethargic. i smile, then i frown.
because somehow i just know ..
it will all end one day.
more so, in a blink of an eye, they will all just vanish.

our future generation won't get this amazing opportunity like we have to experience all this God-given beauty. they won't know what an aurora is like; they won't know what it feels like to inhale clean air; they won't know what its like to touch a growing woodbark.

as A Samad Said has wrote;

i want the damned fools to leave the forests alone.

end quote.

and we call ourselves the future generation of hope.

even i am going to admit it.

i am a bloofy damned fool. hypocrites, we all are.
why must we be so self-centered and selfish?

God has blessed us with life.
and here we are miss-using it as if we ever are worth it.

for once, maybe we can just close our eyes
and think about what we can do to make our lives something that we are worth living.
how we can change the future.
how we can live up to what we dare call ourselves; the future generation of hope.

i believe we can agree to this priceless love.
i believe we can do it together.

lets stop before its too late.

We Believe- Good Charlotte

Forget Yesterday

blogspot sucks.
scratch that, my blog sucks.

i remember like aeeeons ago, i said this blog was ought to be private and my maximum number of friends would have to be what, less than five? rofl. and its so akward; the fact that i've started being careful and watching what i say write on this blog aka online diary of mine.


i tend to have my offdays when i write out a HELL lotta anger ...
things that are meant to be lingering in my mind and oughta stay locked there.
and because there are certain people reading it, i tend to get bashed up.


like wtf, its my blog.
if you think you're gonna get upset or insulted, DON'T READ IT.




THATS WHY........




i've created a Wretchblog now. *gives an evil wink*
when i'm done AND when i feel thats its okay to announce the url *ahaks* here on my blogspot blog, i will.
because you know whats the best thing bout Wretchblog?



I CAN PUT PASSWORDS/PRIVATISE A POST IF I WANT TO.
:D talk bout personal.

the shameful guilt you throw upon me

not subsiding one bit

and i thought you would be different

Gotta Go My Own Way- Vanessa Anne Hudgens & Zac Efron

Not Supposed To Be This Way

mana itu FooHannYe?

hahahhaa wth la FooFy.

you actually got a snap of her when she was out on the hunt for you. rofl

anyway yes. i'm in FooFy's house right now.

she's on her laptop and i'm using her com.

i'm such a pain, aren't i?

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i got it cold again.

stuck in between two worlds; my dreams and my reality.

and it finally struck me; bringing me back from cloud nine.

i knew i shouldnt've brought it this far.

i knew i should have stopped it when i could.

i shouldnt've gave it to you.

i shouldnt've gave you that blinding hope.

You showed me so many signs; i ignored all of them.

i should have listened to You.

and like karma, You're letting it hit me from the back.

why didn't i listen to You?

i'm sorry, yang

Apologize- One Republic

Secretive Crush

how long have you liked her?

ummm .. since February.

and SHE NEVER KNEW?

i'm shy la.

he's been eye-ing on me since effing FEBRUARY. damn i feel stalked.

and you suck la, booooy.
but anyhoo, i'm still mentally squealing.

DaDaDa- Trio

I Won't Let Me

After nine months, yesterday, i slept with a smile on my face.

excuse me.
i need to un-emofy myself right now.

First Time- Lifehouse

Lovestoned

i look at my spongebob, it reminds me of you

why?

coz i call him stinky too. :D

spongebob's a GUY O.o

i talked to Samantha about this lucky mr. F whom she knows who obviously has a crush on me too because

• i barely know him
• and he bought me freaking reload when he found out i had no credit
• we've been messaging each other from 11-3 am yesterday and from 9am til now.

i don't know.

i really like this guy; he's spankingass-ly funny, TO ME, he is rather cute no i don't need or want any other opinions frm you people, pretty sporting, a weeny bit shy *screams* and reeeeeeally nice. you know, the typical type of guy JuYi would fall for. best of all; he just makes me laugh no matter what.

its really nice and fun to feel like this again.
i mean its been what, nine months since i've been on crushing-hiatus? xD

i'm just afraid i will repeat what i have sinfully done to the men in my past.
break them hearts.

Mimpi Yg Sempurna- Peterpan

Watch Me Go

so i watched the House of Wax and the Date movie today yes talk about zaman batuuuu
House of Wax is; beyond gorry. the whole movie just grossed me out. the only reason why i watched it was because of Chad Michael Murray xD and because somehow, i knew he was gonna be the hero in the end. i mean, i actually forwarded all the disgustingly horrific and gorry parts speeded it up by two to four seconds fast so that i won't be able to hear the stupid spine-chilling music playing in the background.

yeah what for watch the movie right?

the Date Movie however, is reeeeeally funny.
have you watched it?

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its reeeally fun and exciting when you have feelings for someone, isn't it?
your whole world seems to go round perfectly well; everything seems to make you happier than they usually do. you laugh more than usually do. even when it rains, you are smiling and somehow you are definite that the sun is gonna be extra bright when it blooms out.

even when the world is a total mess, you just see it as normal perfection.

sure its been a really long time since i've experienced this feeling, and boy am i uncomfortable with it. no no i really do enjoy that exhilarating thrill;when you find out that the other someone has feelings back for you; when you're thinking of him/her, he/she is thinking of you too; when a whole lot of dejavou-ness happens only to the both of you; when he/she is staring at you right in the eye and your mind just floats to cloud nine.

i love being in love. who doesn't?
but what will happen when it goes on further?

i confess; i have commitment problems.
i have let go the love of my life and honestly, there are still days when i sigh out of deep regret.
i have broken solidly beautiful hearts, and i do not wish to break another one.
i have been called a player, and looking back at the past, i cannot agree more.

i want love to happen all over again.
but as obviously proven, i am just not ready.

should i let him go?

or hold on with hope?

Poison- Bel Biv Devoe

Professional Belly Dancers

just thought of needed to share some videos. :)






and no i DO NOT KNOW who that girl is.

i'm holding loose

but ain't letting go

5:19- Matt Hertz

Laki-laki

i got stabbed tagged.
don't really feel like doing it; God knows why. prolly its pms. i've been funnily moody for no reason lately.

RULES:
1. The tag victim has to come up with 10 different points about his/her perfect lover.
2. Have to mention the gender of his/her perfect lover.
3. Tag 10 other victims to join this game and leave a comment on their blog.
4. If you are tagged the second time, there is NO need to do this again.
5. Lastly, and most importantly, HAVE FUN DOING IT.

a guy lahh, fwartdurh. *does that typical swt face*


Mr;

1. boleh menari
now who doesn't know that is in her putiple-factor book?
i'm sorrayh but it SO REALLYFREAKINGTURNSMEOOOOOON.
somehow, men who can't dance .. tak boleh laa. as weirdly not-so-racist as i sound, don't you think it looks weird when a guy who can't dance tries to dance?

trust me i've seen it.
number one turn off factor.

he doesn't have to be all can-do-13018401-pirouettes-and-dance-on-my-head terrer la, asalkan got rhythm in the bodehh sudah boleh laa.



2. mata sepet
we all know this too, don't we?
i feel that compared to men with big eyes, its ... sexier. HAAA

i'm sorry but its REALLY CUTE laa. at least i think it is.


3. tinggi
i mean, i am 170 cm tall a.k.a 5ft 7 and i wear three inch heels which makes me like what, 5ft 10 or 6ft? i don't want no shortieeee.

i might as well marry an angmokia lahh like that.

unless there's some male, taaaaalldarkandhandsome dude stalking my blog right now who think they can sweep me off of my feet? :):)




4. NO Melo-dramatic
no i do not want the Shakespeare oooooh-i-will-die-for-youuuu-and-live-for-you-forevaaaah psych drama lovesick man. its just; gross. :S i don't want a drama king in my relationship. heck just because i am a drama queen doesn't mean you have to match it up with me. i'll be the only one who's providing all the drama, alright? xp

but i definitely will be impressed if a guy can do drama. :)

5. Farnaaayh

i love a man with a sense of humour. :))

i stab all of you who have not done this! xD

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there. my click ultimate five.

i'm really not much of a greedy person laa i don't look for much in a guy. sure he must have the ever essential heart, manners, good looks, charm, grace bla bla bla.. in fact even if the guy doesn't have any of the top 5, i wouldn't really mind. :)

i'm too nice now, aren't i?

and i really can't think much of any boy must-haves coz i'm uh ... currently having a crush on this guy who only has one of the top5. its been like what, months since i had an itty bitty crush?

as weird as it gets, i don't want him to have have feelings for me.

Break You- Marion Raven

Soul Child

get involved, yaaaww. *clickity*


i'm really not that much of an enthusiast of whats happening to Mother Nature but i am a strong strong enthusiast in what people are doing to Mother nature. kinda sounds the same :S but yeah i'm more affected by the people of our world now. and wait, humans are the cause for all the bad thats happening to our world now, right?


we'll wait til 15th Oct to my very the grand post. *insert big fat smile*

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it's Noel's last day in KL today. *sigh*

he's prolly packing his bag, adjusting his eyeliner and hair, and walking out of his housedoor right now.






i'm gonna miss this boy slash good friend.
you better make sure you miss me!

now,
Friday i had a hugegilerbabismashingyouwouldbejealousyouwerentpresent party.
Saturday i went to TimesSquare.
Sunday i went to FooFy's house.
Monday i went to Samantha's house.
Today i went to KFC, Div's and then my own house. hah.

tomorrow?
KLCC or school?

Everyday ( Cantonese version )- Justin Lo & Kary Ng

Of Shoe Blisters And Food

eh i dreamed of your PMR results

what did i get?

4A's and 3B's
*gulps* what are my B's?

English, Sejarah and KH

thanks a lot, gor.

really. *breathes in and out*

a sudden capture of the recent past;

NEVER go shopping wearing 3-inch pumps. xD

no no no its not because i cannot stand walking as if i'm tiptoe-ing.

THEY ARE PUMPS.

those shoes that wrap around your whole foot like glue.

you DO NOT want to have a view of the blisters i have on my ankles and footsoles.

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went to disturb visit FooFy yesterday.

=DDDDD

since well, we were both online from like, 11-2 and got sick of this screen i'm currently glaring at.

we had ice-cream.

we i did a little butt-jiggity with Logan viewing from FooFy's webcam. bahahahahah

we went for a little steamboat buffet.

we played badminton.

we ventriloquized? I Gotta Go My Own Way on her public everyone-uses-and-can-see road.

we got pretty sick of just eating and well, doing nothing.
so i played my video cam and ummm .. just recorded.

yeah in case you didn't get a good view of our plates in the video,

this one's FooFy's.
pretty clean eh?

unfortunately ..

this one's mine.

Ugly- Sugababes

Damned Anger

just finished shopping at TimeSquare and Sungei Wang with FooFy, Amanda and Artisha.
Amanda and i bought the same shirt! =D
she's a lil bit shorter but DAYUMMM her BODEEEEEEEEH. *glares in a pervertish way*

oh which reminds me.
Amanda!
i forgot your blog link laaa give it to me give it to me give it to me.
and shattap, you're not fat.


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so Amanda wrote a blogpost on how she didn't like her cheerleading leader.
some stupid girl told a school teacher and told Amanda to delete the post. and she was banned from ever cheerleading again until after form5. what da fark?

kudos, Amanda.
the school doesn't deserve an amazing dancer like you.

which gave me a reminiscence.
sometimes people just cannot accept the truth.
i was recently caught in this kind of situation a few weeks back and as Mei quoted; 'you're stuck JuYi. you tell her, she trashes you. you lie about it, she still trashes you.'

as for me, i'd choose to lie.
don't point your finger at me and accuse me of being all guilty and cowardly because hey, this was my choice. i do admit that i am a coward at certain things, especially at expressing my feelings and thoughts verbally because they never seem to come out in sequence and proper as they are lingering in my mind. it wouldn't make much difference either even if i told you the truth now would it?

i do feel heartbroken.
because my best friends choose their boyfriends over me.

i look back on the times when my boyfriend bitched bout all of you.
now i start to wonder why i ever backed all of you up.
its not that i want something in return for what i've did, i just want the assurance that you guys won't change or change your perceptions of me even after having someone else being involved in your lives.

just like you, i'm not perfect.
stop expecting me to do things how you think it should. i have my own reasons on the things that i choose to do.

so this is my side of the story that you did not bother to take knowledge in.

so give me something to believe in

Believe- The Bravery

Birthday Slash After PMR Party

bet you don't know what its like putting two three parties together eh?



so yes the three parties were;
JuYi's surprise party
Kuhan's the dude who was born on the same day as me surprise party
after-PMR party



and they were under MY roof. *gulps*



you guys really killed in fooling me laa on this.

like stated in my previous post, i was supposed to go for dance and i was eagerly excited because there was gonig to be a guest from SoYouThinkYouCanDance to attend my class and ummmm .. yes i was really gilerbabiexcited!

*phone rings*

yes, mummy?

you have to come home now. ask aunty to fetch you back.

but WHY? like what, is someone dying or something?

*hangs up*

could've been Dennis. *semi-faints*
could've been Nikki.
could'be been any of them.
bah.


then i reach home and see Samuel standing at my gate. O.o
rare sight, people.


so my sis told me that he was talking to him bout Edwin Samuel's younger brother?
and the smart part of my brain believed her. i walked into my house, completely dumbfound, and get free throws of pillows from .. i say, 10 people? and they were all 'SURPRIIIIIIIIIIIISE!' and i broke down. heh.

and my parents were in this!

i did not realize that the way everyone was being all weird yesterday was because they were planning this whole thing for me.

• Nadeem calling my phone and telling me 'no i don't want to talk to you, i wanna talk to Divya
• Divya acting all .. weird. =s
• seeing Samantha, BoonAun, Ines and Ravinder walking near my housing area and when i asked them where they were going, they ran away from me.
• mom cooking noodles for like ten people

i'm sorry laa i was really caught up with the whole i'm-gonna-meet-someone-from-SoYouThinkYouCanDance-during-hip-hop thing. HAH.

to cut it all short;
yesterday. was one HELLA party.
my house living room + lights off + blasting Evo speakers + alcohol drinks, it just doesn't get any better.
Kuhan, Samuel and Ravinder dancing? maaan. i swear you'd pay to watch.

thank you so much guys.
i mean cmon, you guys got me in tears xD
i bet it took forever to plan this surprise party and for Ranjali and Suz to cook me pasta. lmao

Half Crazy- Musiq Soulchild

NOT Over

you ruined my after-PMR mood.
thanks alot, Junaidah. really.

Afraid- Nelly Furtado ft Attitude

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let me just take that back. xD

so i went to JJ with Div, Pek Kee and LingLing just now.

GAWD Pek Kee go eat or something, skeletor!

so yes.

the highlight of my day;

i finally own Vincci's black leather 3-inch peeptoed pumps. :)

image not available for the moment.

i've been keeping my eye on it since ummm, 6 months ago?

and i never got the chance to actually splurge my money on it coz i was either in a rush, no time etc etc.

i feel happy. *trods around in squares*

i'm now keeping my eye on their RM96 brown leather knee boots. wooohyeahh maayn.

off to dance class now.

Hate That I Love You- Rihanna

I Mean Really

so how was your BM paper?

*hesitates for a while and takes a deep breath* FUCK!

yeah.

i actually shouted it out right after the exam. bummer.

i tend to screw up my bahagian B a.k.a picture question in the BM composition paper but well so far, i haven't screwed it up in a very long time already. and of all papers, i had to screw up my PMR BM paper. i mean really, COME OOOOOOOOOON JUYI.



i'm off to do a little revision.

byee.



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bloody Internet was on God's side; preventing me from using the computer.

English
i was over-confident, as usual.

no no everything was perfectly fine until the essay paper.
i wrote ... ummmm ... too much? like, two 1/2 papers.
I FORGOT THAT YOU WERE NOT ALLOWED TO WRITE TOO MUCH!

i got really carried away with the question.
because it basically had no boundaries to the writing, except that we had to use all the notes given which i did. and we all know when JuYi has no boundaries/limited access to something, she uses to the full.

which again,
I FORGOT THAT YOU WERE NOT ALLOWED TO WRITE TOO MUCH!


Science
why is everyone saying it was hard/mighty tough/brain killing?

IT WAS FINE.
yes i'm saying this to you too, brainypants princess and Edna.

it wasn't extremely hard or whatever, but it was a lil bit confusing here and there, especially paper two. can't really tell what the question wanted; this or that. oh well. the result day will reveal everything. i answered it all by depending on what God thinks i should and its all His hands.


Math
now who knew this paper would be such a snap?

IT WAS SO FREAKING EASY.
when these words are coming from a mouth of a Math hater, you have to believe it. :)
i didn't really study or revise Math at all since i'm soooooo smart yes i know which was what brought me to panic when the question paper was flapped onto my table.


one of my pemeriksa looks like a fat edition of a chipmunk.
no seriously.


honestly, everyone didn't expect the Math paper to be this easy.
its PMR hellooooo!?!?!? *knocks on invisible door*

but well they might just bring the graph up.
better stop bragging right now.

History
i couldn't do like, more than twenty questions at first.
i was panicking zomg. JuYi the Sejarah Queen panicking!

then Nadeem the oh-so-all-of-a-sudden-confident-in-his-History-paper person was all 'omg it was so easy man!' and so i gave my question paper to him to check and i did fine. :):)

Kemahiran Hidup
i worked for it.
and now i'm smiling. :)

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i don't know bout other people but i've been getting on my cocky, over-confident side at the start of PMR. explains why i flunked BM i don't know i just don't feel as panicky and sweaty =s like when i'm doing other exams or papers. mehh.

tomorrow's the last paperrrrrrrrrrrrrr yeahmaaaaaaaaaaayn.
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i still want all A's.
i still am keeping hope inside.
i still am praying for a miracle.

Can't Get You Out Of My System