today i suddenly feel elevated.
i felt the need to speak, to talk to people i don't often talk to, to acknowledge the ones that are the silent wallflowers in my world.
i used to have a nasty habit of analyzing details,
and then mock myself because of the advantages that people have over me, but also quietly pat myself on the back because of the advantages i have over them.
i feel changed.
not entirely, but most definitely.
today, during the sermon which i arrived in time for,
i found myself engaging passionately in the message that Pastor Ong was preaching to us. many of the things that he has been talking about recently happen to be very mind opening and enlightening ( for myself ). today, he spoke about how many Christians reach their destination, but don't fulfill their destiny.
i am not speaking in reference to anyone, not even myself, but he is indeed very true. logically, what is the point of constantly talking about bringing more people to Christ when one doesn't live in the ways of our Lord? sure; it IS GREAT to preach and spread the gospel but if in the process, we lie, we practice fraud, we dismiss other important things like family and loved ones... how does that make us any bit Christian?
we bitch, we blabber, we complain, we gossip...
what sort of image are we portraying to the world as His believers?
we focus so much on booking a spot for ourselves in heaven,
until we forget to live in His ways during our time on this earth.
the reason why i found this message enlightening was because i never saw bringing-more-people-to-Christ as my destiny as a Christian. i got confused along the way and my belief system nearly broke because i saw and experienced many friends who seemed to have focused on that with more importance, instead of first, trying to live righteously.
please don't get me wrong,
and think that preaching the gospel is unnecessary.
it is only something that i will do successfully one day when my faith and belief in Him is of top notch, and when i am finally ready to exemplify myself as the right example of a believer.
i am still a piece of forming clay,
not fully shaped yet,
and simply not ready yet.
i pray that all my brothers and sisters can rethink and reshift our focuses. that if we have focused on our destination so much instead of our destiny, we can take time to change these wrong mindsets of ours and always remember to exemplify You and the ways that You have lived while you were on this Earth. then only can we be successful in the things we do because we have allowed You to work amidst us.
Misguided Ghosts- Paramore
